black and white memories.
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Went to the have lunch with benji, wb, js yesterday at food republic, followed by shopping at kino and pool at the meridian. Muhahaha triple kill =P think i improve a bit since the last time I played pool. Then had lunch with sz's family at the tiong bahru market. It's the ifrst time that I have been there since it renovated, and muz say that it really is a very big improvement from last time since it's much more spacious and have a lot of new stalls. but there's so much new stalls there I can't even tell which is the original stalls that's been there since the old days.
Anyway, went to lot one to meet up with bc, wb, benji and jh, and juz in time to sing 2 songs b4 we left the k-box. Had some laughters over jh ( =p ) and then played pool again, though this time benji and wb got their revenge ( >.< ) but still mange to win most of the 2 v 2 game heihei =) Went to play badminton with my sec sch gang then supper at kfc.
Over the past few wks, the resolve that I formed for not playing any sports till my knee recovers had slowly dissolved away. Realised that perhaps it's still too early for me to be doing these stuffs so frequently. Guess it's time I rest for a few more wks and juz focus on recovering now.. =)
Oh well, long wk ahead... time to slp..
nitez everyone...
Monday, September 18, 2006
Hmmm...
though it's true I didn't really enjoyed the CS game during the lan gaming, I didn't stay on cos I didn't want to spoil the mood of others. I stayed on simply because I juz treat that as part of hanging out so it doesn't really matter wat we were doing or wat we were playing.
Are we really getting more selfish?
Or perhaps it's juz that we didn't tell each other how we feel or wat we are thinking at that moment and assume that the others will know? especially since u hav known each other since sec 1 that it's juz seems natural not to talk abt it?
guess we all need to do a bit of self-reflection on ourselves..
u need to get stronger mentally... u can't let thing get to u all the time...sometimes bad things happen, but once it happen then there's no use bothering over it.And it's especially useless blaming urself for it even if it's ur fault, because that doesn't help the situation at all. Get stronger. U have to get stronger.Because there may be times whereby I might not be able to bring u out of ur depression too...
Friday, September 15, 2006
Mentally tired.
Tired from the constant headache that's been bugging me for the past 2 wks.
Tired from the gastric pains that come out of the blue.
Tired of worrying abt this, worrying abt that.
I need to hibernate.
I need to get this irritating headache out of my head for good.
hopefully the medication will work....
Sometimes feel like i'm viewing everything ard me through a small window out of a body that doesn't belong to me. I miss the feeling of running late at night. I miss the feeling of playing bball on the court without worrying abt anything. I want to feel the rush of adrenalin into my head. i need to feel the rapid pounding of my heart.
I need to feel alive.
Hai~... i'm losing myself...
Monday, September 11, 2006
Last friday was the CO evening and this time round we had it at the newly built CSC. I muz admit that the whole environment there is qt good. The swimming pool there looks impressive too. Although it doesn't have so much features compared to the the je sport complex one, but it's surrounded by so much greenery that it makes the whole place feel so relaxing. But unfortunately the food was qt average, and it's exactly the same but taste slightly worse than the last CO evening's... the entertainment sucks too but had fun chatting with my friends anyway.
Didn't do much on sat. Juz played a bit of badminton, not enuff to aggravate the ligament strain but enuff to give me muscle ache the next day... then had supper at the market near the court..
Sunday was spent having lunch with the guys and hanging out at wb's hse. But I left earlier since I'm having dinner with her family later on.
Phew~
Not as awkward as I thought I would feel, but I realised that it's still quite difficult for me to interact withh ppl sometimes. Juz can't help but feel a bit awkward and lost... hmmm...
perhaps I made a right choice in not choosing business as my choice of study?
who knows..
went through some fragments of the past... brought back qt a lot of memories...
time flies.. =)
Camp to today was tiring. Very tiring. And my jumper's knee acted up again though I didn't do any jumping. Muz be all the walking ard today... so came back hm to take a nap... and damn now I still can't sign on to msn....
Since like all the backstabbing and office politics is starting again.
Oh well... doesn't concern me.
Seen qt a lot these 1 year plus in the army... dun think that it's anything out of the normal.
Gd luck to those being stabbed.
And for those who are doing the stabbing u better watch ur own back.
Sometimes it's juz so hard to understand wat ppl really want, or wat they are searching for.
Monday, September 04, 2006
Had my second physio session today, did more exercise than last wk. Feels better when I'm walking now cos my knee dun get tired so easily le... but at the moment the therapist told me not to do any jogging yet since the knee structure will still be unstable... how well...
hmmmmmmmmmmm...
I'm aging.....
>.<