black and white memories.
Sunday, July 31, 2005
- Fireworks =) -
Had a gd dinner at the "no sighboard restaurant" at esplanade... though we didn't eat any seafood. Suprised to see so many ppl turn up though sch already reopen for the gals. But the fireworks was quite short leh... wonder if its bcos yesterday was juz a rehearsal or wat... aniway, had a gd chat at the restaurant, and the gals had a gd laugh '''-_-... but nvm, it was fun...
After the dinner some of us went for supper while the rest went to Zuok, but not so sure wheter they manage to get in in the end... We chatted over at supper till like 12 plus and then shared a cab home... still like this sort of sitting down chatting session at some slack place... at least there ppl can hear each other better, and get to know a bit more about wat others are thinking and wat's going on in their life...
Guess tat i'm really leading a totally diff ns lifestyle fr the rest... dun even know if i can call it an army lifestyle. Everyday juz ba long long walk... dun hav to march at all. Canteen break is almost to the extent of OTOT... meaning own time own target... Can't compare it to the discipline lifestyle the others have, not to mention the hell training commando teo is undergoing... haha..
But anyway, have been reading up on some weird physics theory ever since i got so much time. But all those are merely interesting stuff that i forgot almost the next few days after reading them... feels more like reading storybks. But i think its time to hit the textbk and get back to the maths... maybe with the revision of jc physics first.. haha... shall see how long my interest will last this time ^_^
Friday, July 29, 2005
-Angel Watching Over Me-
haha... luv friday, cos its tone-down day... and working pace will be slower. Actually found time to learn how to ride a bicycle in the afternoon... which helps a lot since the place we work is a bit of distance from company line. Took a whole 15 min to roughly get the hang of it, but think the turning still needs a bit of work... HeihEi =P
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
-humming bird...-
We were doing PT this morning, and a dozen of us were doing tug-jumps... jumping all over the place. After which I looked down and saw this small, yellow humming bird on the ground... ?????!!!!!! Suddenly realised how close we were to squashing this tiny thing... I was wondering when and how it appear out of nowhere and why didn't it fly away. But on closer look, it was juz a baby bird... too young to fly. Had to catch it and put it somewhere else so that it won't get killed. Holding it in my hand, it feels so tiny... so fragile, yet so "alive".... can feel its heartbeat .... then brought it over to the workshop where it shd be safer... but by the time I got back aft PT it seems to have wandered off by itself again... juz hope that it'll somehow survive ... ^_^ for a split second I realised how beautiful life is... something that's so small yet have so much life in it... =) ...
Then the list for the orderly clerk for August came out today. 8th of August... wat a lousy date to do orderly... '''-_-... but I pity the guy who hav to do it on national day itself haha
Sunday, July 24, 2005
-Bowling~!-
Had a bowling session with sk,wb,jh,junling and sf yesterday, val came to watch us play too..... i totally sucks at the first game, but miraculously actually managed to score slightly over 100 at the second game, but still lost to wb who performed a dramatic 3 continuous strike to earn a XXX on his screen, with a comedical slip during his last ball... to think I thought it's impossible to overtake me at the tenth frame, since our score were on par after the ninth frame and I manage to score a strike and a spare '''=.=... so had to abide by the bet we had and treated him to a cup of drink... next time lor... i'm going to defeat him hehe =P ... as usual, make fun at each other's way of bowling... ended the bowling session at ard 10 plus, after tat went to the 24 hrs Mac at bukit batok and chat all the way till 1am plus... had some gd laughs, but by 12 plus seng was already starting to says things that completely have no link... haha...
went to meet up with some friends to shop for a b'dae present... only 3 ppl can make it, out of which one showed his face for ard half an hour b4 he rushed off to meet his friends again "'-_-... always so busy with socialising... but really appreciate him for making an effort to come down... had a gd chat with them... but didn't really lasted long since they have to prepare for their bk in tonight...haha guess i'm too slack compared to them ^_^
Friday, July 22, 2005
- Passed IPPT =)-
Went for another of the IPPT retest at ayer rajah camp this morning. Unexpectedly, I actually passed, after these freaking long years... hEiHeI =D Time to go for silver while there's still time this year
Wednesday, July 20, 2005
-one juz left... another one soon...-
Hmm... my friend, one of the 4 M113 driver remaining, is going for an peration to remove his eye cataract next mon, followed by one month's rest at home... He got it all planned out. Go for one eye this year, and the next one next year so that he can also serve one month's NS less next year... I'm amazed... cos since he's going for AHM training every mon, wed and fri, he's already effectively only serving a 3 and a half days week?? But during his recubaration period, I'll one guy less to talk to... hai~
Guess nobody can be perfect in this world...... the harder one trys to be perfect, the more conscious he'll be abt his own imperfection. A war rages on between a person's present self and his past. The mistakes one made, the regrets of not doing something that shd have been done, the guilt over getting fustrated and losing temper over things... the desire of being a better person, the desire of not making the same mistakes again. Letting go of the past is the best way to enjoy the present. Stop comparing with ur past self, stop comparing with other people. Live ur life by ur own rules... have ur own set of moral values, own style of doing things, own way of interpretating things and handling relationship... But unfortunately, easier said than done...
Monday, July 18, 2005
- another gdbye... -
juz realise tat I got my own b'dae in my profile wrong haha... too careless. aniwae, another boring day in camp, though I learnt a bit more on mech. stuff... getting a head start in mech engineering ^_^ but tml is the last day that my friend will be serving NS for now... disrupting for Med after that... sianz~ i'll be all alone in my section... doing BOS ( Before operation service) on my vechicles... if I fell down the vehicle and crack my head, or suffocates from excess carbon monoxide in the vehicle, most prob no one would notice too -_-.... hai~... sad to see him leave... shared so many things together these few days... but it's gd for him to get out of army. He has a bright future in front of him... all the best.
Sunday, July 17, 2005
- phew~ cleared...-
managed to clear the stupid virus from my com... took up so much time =S anyway, the class gathering yesterday was quite fun... especially the gossiping at starbucks aft the the dinner at that freaking ex restuarant... haha ^_^...the starbucks chat allows me to learn a few more things abt others... had had a few gd laugh seeing the 2 OCT "backstabbing" each other hehe=D... But seriously, it's supposed to be a classs dinner... but only like 10 ppl or so turn up?? hai~ even the organiser himself is not there... as always, the usual ppl turned up for it.... Nvm~ still had a gd time though... ^_^
-=S-
kaoz... early in the morning and my com catches a stupid virus... now still trying to clear it, ow once I log in to msn i'll start sprading the "fun" ard... suay...
Friday, July 15, 2005
-Orderly clerk... something light =)-
Using the office's com to blog... cos my COS ( company orderly sergeant) taking a shower now.. shiok sia, only two ppl on this whole floor, got all the facilities to ourselves, and can bk out tml morning liao... Anyway, a quick recap of wat I did for my off-day.... went to play badminton with mel, sf, oml and xucen yesterday.. hehe.. luckily I still remember how to play, didn't get trashed. Aft tat, gossip a bit b4 rushing back home, get changed and meet up with some friends staying in chalet at Sentosa. Need to pass a b'dae gif to a gd friend... rather, a friend whom I treat more like a younger sis... Wanted to go today leh, so I can pass the present to her on her B'dae todae instead of yesterday... too bad, stuck in camp -_-... Aniwae, quite fun to meet up with them, since I haven't seem some of them for quite sometime liao... glad to know that the B'dae gal haven't change much too... still look as cheerful as b4 ^_^ Tml is Bk-out day! and luckily the TV here got central, so I can watch my anime later HeIhEi =)
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
-Tml is Off- Day-
HeIhEi... clearing my off-in-due tml... finally can play some badminton liao... but it's been quite some time since I last played... so hopefully won't get trash too badly "'^_^... going to be a hectic day tml, muz rush to Sentosa aft the badminton session, and rush back home before 11pm to catch Inuyasha and shaman King... HeIhEi... not going to stay home and rot away my off day!! Havoc! =>
Saturday, July 09, 2005
-hang over...-
got a "hang over"... not bcos I drink, but bcos the bad mood yesterday spill over to todae too... wake up feeling sianz, feel better in the aftnoon, but back to the sianz mood again aft the tuition... spend my evening walking ard aimlessly until finally the bad mood dissipated... BAck to my old self now HeIhEi V^o^
Friday, July 08, 2005
-Bad day...-
... It's one of those days that I feel like completely destroying myself. Firstly, supposed to have a 15km run, but they cancelled it. Start of a bad day. After that got attached to comms section in order to finish up checking the last few vehicles, and most of them got prob... another bad thing. After lunch, went on for a major reshuffling and shifting of vehicles all over the place, and it took us till 6pm to finish up wat we r supposed to do, when normally we r suppose to fall out on 5 pm on fri. Bad. And worst still, most of these work that we r doing is not even my section's work. It's all bcos they bloody hell always push things to the last minute and then panick. Some of their work attiutte, the way they treat ppl, pushing responsibilities ard, slacking when there's work to be done, not being considered, talking rubbish, playing a fool... all sorts of nonsense is really starting to put me off. Some ppl there is really starting to piss me off too. And to make me feel even morse, I think i'm sunking lower and lower to their level. Feel so bloody fustrated when I get home that I have to force myself to read something to dissipate my anger b4 I vent my fustration on someone else again...
No longer feel the urge to do work. The curiousity to learn new things is gone. The guilt of slacking when some ppl is still working also seems to die off. Everyday juz go there, make stupid jokes with the others, laugh it off as if we r some lunatics on the loose.... no discipline, every now and then finding ways to slack, performing disappearing acts here and there... wat the fuck. Wat kind of life am I leading.... some ppl say that ppl will become stronger and more mature after they come out from the army. But i definitely dun feel it this way. Most prob i'll juz come out of it as a piece of junk. Living each day as it comes... slowly rotting and corroding away like some unwanted trash...
But at least something gd happened todae. One of my friend didn't make it to NUS med the first time, and his appeal also got rejected. But NUS called him this aft him and told him that he got a place... took all of us by surprise... but since it's already July, it's not too sure whether he can disrupt... But I sure hope he can, cos can tell that he really wanted to get into med... and it's gd that he get out of that junkyard asap b4 that place corrodes him... ... really misses the school days where everthing seems so much simpler... The world sucks man... really sucks...
Monday, July 04, 2005
Solved =)
Hai~ suppose to have a day off on Wednesday, but bcos must prepare certain stuff for the reservists ICT next week, have to go back... most ppl in the company will be having off... but luckily, can claim it back some other day. But as much as I want to have it on friday so I can have a long weekend, I think my section still have some work to do to prepare for next mon's issuing out of vehicle... But hopefully can get the work done fast enough so that I can have a long wkend to slack HeiHEi :D
And managed to finally settle down with a pen and paper yest nite to start working on the brain teaser that my tutee posed to me. Solved the qn at last, thx to zx's opening few steps, which manage to help me start on solving the qns.
HAha, felt the sense of achievement, and really enjoy the sound of the pen scribbling on paper... sort of reminder me of school days... really missed those days lor...
And I did the test that val posed up on her blog... And my psychological age is... 34!!?? "'-_- sian diaoz... i haven't even enter uni yet ...But my immaturity level is 60% (...??), my maturity level 43%, and aging level 50% ( ...?? aging also got level?? haha)... Think I need to watch more cartoons haha =P
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Mayday and War of the Worlds
Juz bought the Mayday Final Home CD todae... all the song rox! And quite worth the money too, cos it's 3 CD and 1 VCD for abt $23 bucks... The tuition agency called again and ask if I want to take another student... but think it's a bit far lor, and dun feel like working so hard yet. So for now having one tutee enough for me liao lar... After my tuition in the afternoon went to meet up with sk, nic, zx, sf, fiona,val and jas for nic's belated b'dae celebration at swesens, and then went to catch the War of the War.. Think the show ok lar, the effects was quite nice, and the ending was a bit suprising for me leh.... cos the first part of the movie was like a documentary showing extermination of human beings... didn't expect the story to end with the alien dying... thought that they will wipe out everyone...
After that we took a cab home cos we already missed the last bus and the last train... after reaching home continue to listen to the mayday CD...but fall alseep halfway and wakeup at 2plus am. Decided to try again, but this time same thing happened and slept all the way till morn.. haha =P
Friday, July 01, 2005
my section...
I belong to section 3 of platoon one, living under a control-thirsty PC, and the platoon itself is filled with ppl who always slack somewhere instead of working. Everytime aft we fall out, ppl will start dispersing and disappear. My friends and I always find it amazing how so many ppl can conceal themselves and only turn up during rollcall... but now we r so use ot it ... luckily, my sectionmates are all very hardworking, and I have a very helpful and humourous master sergeant as the section IC. The section ICs of the other section usually juz throw the work doen to his men... hai~ But we r "decreasing" in numbers liao... cos my friend is going to cross over to ATC to be the runner for some colonel... and he have to drag one more ppl there with him... Then there will only be 3 M113 driver left, down fr the 6 of us.... hai~ going to miss him when he's gone...