black and white memories.
Monday, October 31, 2005
took leave on friday.
went back today to find that the work I ask them to do on friday all not done.
nvm, though it's the 2nd time it happened, i can still accept it...
so rushed the work in the morning, managed to finish one of the tasks
Then juz when we r abt to start the other one in the aftnn, then they discover that they lost the paper which we wrote down our info.
. . . . .
-_-
great. juz great. Not only have to catch up on friday's work, but have to do part of thurs' work again.
luckily still managed to rush everything out 1 hr b4 fallout...
almost pissed me off... but already ruined my holiday mood......
Sunday, October 30, 2005
feeling rather lazy to blog lately... partly bcos got nth much to write abt too... -_-...
anyway, went to cine with wb and junlin yesterday, where we had dinner b4 gg back to CDANS to play bowling... actually managed to hit 100 this time ^_^ haha, and sk never fail to entertain us... though he did qt well this time using his "style" of bowling =P had a few gd laughts, then meet up with them again today at clementi to buy games... speaking of which I'm starting to get obseessed with playing com as well.... think I better control myself b4 I have to change another pair of specs =S
darn!... still can't unlocked the characters in the game.... -_-...
Sunday, October 23, 2005
Had a short supper gathering with my sec sch gang yesterday.... haven't seem some of them for quite some time... though it was a short one, but feels gd that we can stil joke ard like we used to... then finally get to see sk and gang after not meeting them for last weekend. Though juz came out to have lunch, still feels gd to have them as company ^_^sometimes, I wonder if if I really wanted to wait for her... or I'm merely clinging on to this feeling of liking someone....
Friday, October 21, 2005
Had a company cohesion run today... had been 2 wks plus since I last did any running... so was pretty looking forward to it esp since now seldom hav a chance to run with so many ppl. Then had a km sharing... where they showed the pictures regardin safety hazards... again.
Keep repeating and repeating... though this time more interesting cos the warrant officer giving the talk was more humourous... but more sarcastic as well...
Slack afternn... cos my guys all wasn't ard... hehe ^_^
manage to drag myself home and the first thing I did was ice-ing my knee....
2 wks of no physical activity still didn't help much...
hai~~
Saturday, October 15, 2005
wat a boring saturday... didn't join sk they all at bugis cos I got tuition in the aftn... rare sia... hardly remember the time I spent a saturday totally by myself... cos usually will see them even if it's juz for a while...wonder if i made the right decision to tell her yest nite...
still... felt relieved that I did what I wanted to do 3 yrs ago...
sort of expected what she wld say.....
time is not right....
nvm... told her i'll be waiting...
even if it turns out to be pointless....
it's fate.
haha :)
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Your Strongest Belief: HonestyYour strongest belief is honesty. 48% of test takers also hold honesty as an important value in life.Because of your uncompromisingly honest nature, you generally feel most fulfilled when you can fully share your thoughts and feelings, good or bad. People likely come to you when they need a forthright opinion because they know you are brave enough to tell your version of the truth, and you enjoy being around people who are forthcoming with their thoughts and opinions as well. Those around you have come to expect that you will generally "tell it like it is." You may feel that any untruth, even a little white lie, will lead to more harm than good. Your emotional intolerance for dishonesty — in yourself and others — makes you a highly trustworthy person
Emotional Landscape:Happiness:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience happiness at a low intensity. When something really good happens in your life, you radiate a serene glow. Your happiness is peaceful, as opposed to elated. While others may be more inclined to express their happiness outwardly, you're more likely to turn inward and experience the more soothing and calming effects of the emotion. This feeling of serenity is incredibly nourishing, though on occasion you may want to really unleash your happiness and share it with the people you love.
Respect:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience respect at a low intensity. When you place your respect in others, it means you've identified them as someone you value and approve of. Some people may think of respect as revering another person without reservation, but when you respect another person you tend to base it solely on your individual interactions with that person. Your tendency is to allow people the opportunity to earn your respect through positive proof of their character. For you, it may be liberating to allow yourself to dispense respect more freely, imagining that humans are generally good in nature.
Fear:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience fear at a high intensity. When something frightens you, such as a dark alleyway or an upcoming test, you may find that you feel panicked. In situations where others experience mild worry or anxiety, you may feel something closer to terror. While there are certainly times in your life when a high level of fear is appropriate and self-preserving, there are other times when your level of fear may be out of proportion with the actual or likely risks involved. You might consider employing some relaxation techniques the next time you feel overwhelmed with an irrational fear. (=S)
Sadness:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience sadness at a high intensity. When you get into a funk, you tend to feel heavy-hearted and, at times, inconsolable, whereas others, in a similar situation, experience a more mild unhappiness or moodiness. Your feelings of sadness indicate that you're in touch with your deepest emotions and that you aren't afraid to delve into painful feelings. Because of this, you're likely a more empathic person than others. While being able to access your grief is a useful emotional tool, you may be more prone to getting stuck in your sadness. During sad times, it's particularly important for you to make plans with others to watch a light comedy or engage in other uplifting activities. (-_-...)
Wonderment:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience wonderment at a high intensity. When something surprises you, you tend to be stunned for a long time. Unexpected news, such as a significant promotion at work, impacts people in different ways. Some people tend to feel mildly upset or alarmed, but you're more likely to feel shocked. If the intensity of your wonderment throws you off, it may be helpful for you to pay extra attention to the thoughts and concerns of those around you, as this may give you a heads up about things that would otherwise escape your attention
Hostility:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience hostility at a high intensity. When someone makes an inappropriate comment, for instance, you're more likely to feel loathing, whereas others may gravitate toward less intense feelings, such as dislike. Your feelings of intense hostility can be used as a gauge to identify behavior that is ultimately offensive or inappropriate, and they can motivate you to take action against such behavior. When misplaced, though, feelings of scorn and disdain can alienate others and sometimes poison you. Engaging in empathetic feelings toward yourself and others is a good way of defusing hostility when it seems out of proportion to the situation at hand.
Anger:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience anger at a high intensity. When you're wronged, you're more likely than others to feel enraged. The benefits of this experiencing anger at this intensity are that it's less likely that someone is going to take advantage of you or get away with mistreatment. You're your own best advocate. When experienced easily or frequently, however, feeling furious can take a toll on your well-being and on your close relationships. You may want to consider employing techniques like daily meditation to help cool the level of your anger. ( >.<....)
Expectancy:
Your test results have revealed that you tend to experience expectancy at a low intensity. For instance, when planning your vacation or getting ready to start something new, you feel curious, but you don't tend to over-prepare or give yourself over to eagerness. You tend to live more in the here-and-now, as opposed to yearning for what you'll someday have. This appreciation of the moment is something that others admire in you. Looking forward to things can add spice to life, but it also means risking disappointment. For you, it may be important to take a bit more of that risk, and allow yourself to spend a bit more time planning for your future
Tuesday, October 11, 2005
Interesting monday.
First, one of my friend got into the vehicle, start engine and found sparks coming from the powercable.
Then another two of my friends, one a joker and the other a blur king, attempted to drive a vehicle without removing the wheel choke first. Of course, the vehicle didn't moved...
After lunch, this pair "performed" another "stunt". Driving the vehicle with the ramp down, as a result, dragged the 1 tonne ramp over 20 metres...
Saw it from afar that the ramp was down, and was shocked that they didn't dicover it. Shouted stop, and tried to signal it to them... but they didn't get the idea that there was something wrong and continue moving.
. . . . . . .
Dialled his number and shouted the loudest "F*** u" into the phone to wake up his idea.
Luckily the ramp wasn't spoilt....
Too careless. No regard for safety.
6th time attempting to drive without removing wheel choke.
2nd time driving with ramp down
Pissed me off.
... but come to think of it can't really blame them... still... the veh could have jerk forward on both occasion and hit the groundguide infront.....
hai~....
felt qt bad for shouting into the phone too... cos there wasn't really a need to be so harsh...
i think i'm not being fair... ...
muz learn to control my temper...
Saturday, October 08, 2005
walking down a road. Aimlessly.
Doesn't know where it will lead to... merely following others... letting time drag me along.
Occasionally, met strangers who would become friends... buddies.
Laughters. Worries.... memories we share...
Crossroad.
The memories stayed as we head for different directions. But distance stretch the bond between ppl as we move further and further apart.
Met more ppl who became gd friends.. shared more memories.... then another crossroad... another gdbye.... and carrying-on of the journey again...
I stopped.
Looked around.... surrounded by ppl walking with different pace, different aims. ppl who knows where they r heading... and ppl who merely follow the path to wherever it takes them... ppl like me.
Suddenly, feel lost.
Can't see where my destination lies. Can't turn back and get back to the place where I started.
Realised that in the end, i'm still gg to be all by myself no matter how many ppl is walking down this road with me now.
Overwhelmed by a sense of loneliness.
Humans. Emotion weaklings.
hai~
Continue on this path ... accompanied by my shadow....
to wherever this road may take me...
Friday, October 07, 2005
sometimes.... feels as though i'm caught in between.
Maybe it's bcos i'm juz too stubborn. But I dun see wat's the harm in doing the things I do.
But it won't work. They juz dun understand.
. . . . .
haha... but then again... perhaps I'm the one who dun understand.
returned home wif aching knee... hai~....
Thursday, October 06, 2005
a lot of ppl in my company gg to ORD soon... some of them this month, some next, and others somewhere in Dec, but most of them already starting to clear their off and leave. Still a ong way to go for me... but guess it'n not gg to be the same when they r not ard...
anyway, a rather interesting wk:
Mon: my friend cut himself while playing some board game on the table... cos the table's glass panel on which he lean his hand on broke... and as a result he got 6 stitches, though no MC given... and the MO did qt a lousy job at stitching him up...
But i was rather suprised at how unsympathetic i felt..
Tues: MP (Millitary police ) raid in the afternoon.Interesting experience, but completely disrupted my momentum... as a result, slack the whole afternoon... -_-...
Wed: Went for acupuncture for my knee... supposed to stop doing any sports for at least a wk... ?!!
hai~...
time's gg to pass by real slow till next wed......
Thurs: starting to sort out the countless no. of keys of the different sections in order to get a proper key/logbook system in place.... due to the no. of vehicle locks that whose spare keys are lost, we might be real busy with changing locks in the days to come... currently hoping we won't have any keyless locks... ow we'll have to break them one by one.... >.<
haha ^_^
Sunday, October 02, 2005
been doing a bit of thinking lately... guess time really does make certain feelings fade.... something is missing... but my mood's been peaceful too... except for the fustration I felt when my phone, to be exact the sim card, give me so much prob...... haha... but I guess tat's tat.....
Saturday, October 01, 2005
had a bowling game with fuqiang, junlin, wb, and sf in the aftn. I had 4 games.... during which drop the ball once, hit my ankle with the ball once, the ball hit nthing countless times... -_-... haha, but had fun anyway. But the way junling and wb played... thought they were really gg to stay there till once since wb seems qt determin to "pass" his bowling... and so he played 11 games in a single aftn, think junlin played close to 10 to bah...... 0_0... admire their never-give-up attitude ^^ then had dinner at Lot 1...reached home at ard 10, quite early for a sat nite... but too bad lah... cos not many ppl ard. sk doing guard duty, jh in camp doing saikang... but had some fun anyway =)