black and white memories.
Sunday, February 26, 2006
hai~...
slept thru the early aftnn.... in a half-alseep manner while listening to some music... luv this sort of feeling... juz dun feel like getting up after a while... but was intending to meet with the gang for dinner, so dragged myself out of bed...
mood got a bit low after sometime cos of something... but nvm... i chose it tat way...
didn't meet up with the rest in the end cos they went home after their lan-gaming... went lib instead..
got some thoughts in mind... but dunnoe how to put it in words...
4 things that makes me smile:
- a great bball or badminton game with friends
- hanging out with ppl that i'm comfortable with
- being able to cheer ppl up
- slacking and slping on a stress-free aftnn
4 things to win my heart:
- be there for me
- make me feel that i'm needed too
- have trust in me
- able to understand my thoughts and feelings
4 things I believe in:
- be who u want to be
- if u want something, then work hard to achieve it instead of relying on others
- forgive and forget
- no matter how hardworking u r, playtime is still impt =)
4 things that I'm afraid of:
- hypocrites (as well as backstabbers... more of dislike rather than afraid )
- not being able to play sports, games etc
- seeing ppl in a sad mood but not being able to do anything to cheer them up
- friends quarreling
4 things/ppl that i want to see now:
- things goes the way I prefer them to be
- ppl ard me happy
- less nonsense gg on ard the world
- and someone to be there for me.... and for me to be there for her
4 ppl who shd do this:
- jian hong
- seok fun
- karine
- zhenjie
lol... did it for fun =)
went to watch FD 3 with wb and serene on sat nite. initially was actually gg to watch the sneak preview of Underworld Evolution at 7pm, but thx to the officer who was still slping at 7pm ''' - - , we didn't get to catch it in the end... so had to watch the 9pm plus FD3 instead. And yes, he dare to show up 20 mins juz b4 the show starts after having overslept ...
haha, anyway, FD3 is a gruesome show, with all the blood, head being crushed bodies being burned etc etc, but the storyline is still the same.... still not so bad lah...but it's a rather short show though, only ard1hr 20 mins or so...
next movie that i wanna watch will be underworld evolution =)
Tuesday, February 21, 2006
thx for the concerns u all have shown =) been thinking thru things for the past few days...
i've decided.
i'll wait....
Sunday, February 19, 2006
I can laugh... smile... joke ard... play a fool....
....... ......
so y won't the damn feeling fade away?
Saturday, February 18, 2006
went back camp for some event which took up half a day... my friend said that I seems to be in a cheerful mood today...
Strange... but I dun feel happy at al
Friday, February 17, 2006
she told me waiting will only be a waste of time........ I dunnoe what I shd do........
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Our section 2IC fractured his hand and got MC for a month, and our new section IC, previously in charge of section 2, is gg to take over us soon. The way we see him always make section 2 work OT and rush work, can say that our future is bleak... -_-... hai~
So far our section has been running more or less on its own since our 2IC dun do much work anyway... had to get his backdated paperwork for him too though his the one whose supposed to do all those work... lol might as well give us part of his pay... sometimes really dunnoe he get a few thousand dollars a month for wat when we r doing most of the work for him. Anyway, we r qt happy with a figurehead IC anyway since we have more freedom. Though our section also does not have a section clerk (... seriously dun think this is much of a section, esp when we only have ard 6 ppl working compared to other section with much more ppl ), we are able to split the clerk work among some of us... so it's still not so bad... except that we r not that familiar with paperwork yet.
But if the new section IC is gg to come in and introduce OT straight away, then I only have these words to welcome him : Wake Up ur Idea
looks like have to make him sit down and give him a 1 hr introduction on the work we does in our section on mon...
Monday, February 13, 2006
initially juz wanted to wait for time to goes by... so that eventually things will fade away...
when there seems to be no hope at all, waiting is juz a mean of occupying the emptiness. So that it won't feel as though part of the heart had been taken away...
Waiting becomes something that provides comfort, provides a purpose...
but when hopes appear, even if it's only a faint one, the feeling that waiting brings changes...
It makes each day lasts longer and each day more torturous.
juz some thoughts.... =)
Sunday, February 12, 2006
went mel's hse on fri nite to play mahjong, and only reach home at ard 2am plus... was supposed to wake up at 10 on the sat morning, but overslept till 12pm when i'm supposed to have tuition at 1pm... no choice so had to postponed the timing... still feeling qt sleepy when I was tutoring the kid... and lol he's even MORE hyperactice than usual... feels so mentally exhausting juz to get him to concentrate on his work =S anyway, after the tuition went to this ulu place call pioneer rd where they had a row of hardware store to get a tool for replacement, but most of the stores were closed because it's a sat afternn, asked ard the few reamining opening ones but still can't find it...
then went for badminton in the evening... now my arm still aching >.<... anyway, had a chat with my sec sch gang after that and we talk abt lots of things.... reached home at 2am plus again.....
hmmmm.... hai~.... still waiting........
gg jp to meet wb and gang later... =)
Thursday, February 09, 2006
waiting....
Sunday, February 05, 2006
something about yesterday's gathering was a bit different... usually when we sit down and chat we 'll just be playing some games... but yest's one was really a heart-to-heart chatting session... said things that were left unsaid yrs ago... our opinions of each other, and also things that we didn't know abt each other b4 this...Now that I think of it, was qt suprised at how frank we were yesterday... some feelings from yest's session still lingers....hmmmm.... dunnoe how to describe it... juz feels diff....
had a chat with her on msn this afternn.... can tell she still thinking abt yesterday's gathering too.... but asked something which I wanted to ask qt a long time ago... though didn't get any definite ans, qt glad that i actually did asked... guess it was the lingering feeling at work...
juz want to know how she feels.... and let her know how i feel abt her... guess it's a gd way to end this long CNYholiday....
Work starts tml, so time to work hard =)
had a sec sch class gathering yesterday... actually not much of a class gathering, juz a bunch of friends in the same sec 1 and sec 2 class. went for k-ge b4 gg for dinner, then had a chat at a playground till ard 2 am.... talk abt a lot of things... how each of us changes etc.. and wonder how we got so close in the first place since the gals and the guys were two separate cliques during sec sch... haha... anyway, really enjoy the chatting session... still thinking abt some of the stuffs that we thought abt though......
anyway, re-learning everything about bball.
Wednesday, February 01, 2006
heard that friendship usually last longer than bgr.... so if a person is impt to u both as a friend and as someone whom u like, which shd u choose?
haha.... maybe i dun need to think so much.... since it's not my call anyway...
and yah, i noe my reflexes are slow. I'm working on it.
=)