Stoning Post

2007-02-17T20:49:00.000+08:00

Seriously..........
Can't figure out what's wrong with the stupid blogger cos the posts that I posted can't be seem when I access my blog the usual way. LOL.... -_-

2007-02-17T17:20:00.001+08:00

hmmm... trying to figure out what's up with the new blogger.... -_-...

2007-02-17T01:31:00.000+08:00

shagged. spent almost 2 hrs catching up on the blog entires of my friends. x_x...

time to slp. still got to work in the morning tml

nitez~

2007-01-18T21:09:00.000+08:00

Had been rather busy these few days... though i've only been on the new job for around one week, it feels as though I hav already been there for a few wks... maybe becos hav been learning qt a lot of things in the past few days, and had been working on sat too... and unfortunately, got to go back to work this saturday again, so it's gg to be a 6 day work week for 2 consecutive week... have a feeling that i'll most prob hav to work 6 days for the next 2 wks as well lol... wonder if it's a gd thing or a bad thing... but watever... at least the ppl there are still qt fun, so wun be so bored...

The day always seems to past faster nowadays.... but the week seems to be much longer than usual... *yawnz*... and can't seen to get enuff slp no matter how many hrs of slp i hav... Really looking forward to CNY now cos at least I shd be able to rest for 2 or 3 consecutive days hopefully.

oh well, haven't been hanging out with wb and the rest for qt a while now... either that or time juz seems to hav been distorted to make me feel this way lol...

2007-01-08T23:35:00.000+08:00

been a rather fast month, cos in the blink of an eye i'm gg to be out of job on tuesday, to be exact tuesday is my last day of work... it's been nice working there, with the nice working environment, nice ppl and so on and so forth... plus no one bothers even if u r late for work, not that i'm late anyway lol... BUT i manage to find a job and will be starting work on wednesday =p but this time the venue will be on Bugis >.<.... so freaking far and it's gg to take qt smtime to travel there. Not very sure wat's my working hrs is gg to be yet, cos although the standard timing is 9 to 6, might still have to work shift smtimes, like form 2pm to 11pm or 1 pm to 10pm according to wat I found out fr the interview... Hopefully i'll be able to cope with this full time job as well as my current tuition which is taking up approximately( approximately becos my tutee like to cancel tuition every now and then lol) 2 weekday evening... not to mention another potential tuition lobang coming along....
>.<

It's abt time I get a taste of wat it feels like to be a working adult

2007-01-01T23:16:00.000+08:00

Finally, 2007.
After having two New Year spent during army life, I can finally spend this one outside =) Didn't go for any countdown, but went out to hav dinner and then played a bit of pool with some friends b4 gg hm. but did spend the last moment of 2006 outside, and managed to catch a glimpse of firework ( really a glimpse only lol ) that most prob came from the countdown party at boon lay. Slept qt late and wake up at 12 noon today... and went to botanic garden in the aftnn. Seriously nv tot that it's so big. It's not really the flowering season, so there wasn't too much flowers to see. but the orchid garden that we went in was beautiful. There's qt a lot of different variety of orchid, different colours and even different sizes. But wat i like best abt the orchid garden is the Coolhouse. And as the name suggest, it's really cooling, becos the gigantic, big greenhse like structure imitates the high mountain areas of the tropical rainforest, which, according to the tourists signs, is qt cooling and humid. Nice place to see see walk walk especially aft walking for so long in the sun. Al in all it's a nice place, esp for outings and pinics but most prob it'll be qt crowded with all the children running ard. Saw two kids rolling down the slope today too lol.

I think the only new year resolution that I want to keep this year is to earn more money.... esp since i'm gg into uni in Aug, into a course which I have no idea if I had made the right choice... Cos seriously, I chose it cos I think it fits my interest the most. Yet I'm not really sure wat's my interest as well. I guess I juz prefer a laid-back and slack life haha... And that's precisely why i need to earn more now so that I have more to fall back on during my uni life. Oh well, current contrat ending soon and most prob will be finding a job real soon. Since i'm not sure what my next job is gg to be like, I'm trying to learn a bit more abt excel, word and stuff, hopefully it'll halp me do my work properly. And has been trying to watch the anime "One Piece" lately, but can't really find the time to start an anime watching marathon at hm cos have been gg out rather often lately. But i suppose I can take my time ad watch it cos for some reason the dl rate of the next few ep is so freaking slow that i'm starting to wonder if all the seeders live in asia and have been affected by the earthquake. But seriously, nv thought that the earthquake in taiwan will affect s'pore in this way... oh well... time to watch some anime b4 i slp.

Nitez everyone, and happy new year.. =)

2006-12-11T23:55:00.000+08:00

First day of work.
And I really mean first day of work because it can be considered as my first ever job since I graduated, if I dun count NS as my job.

Not too bad =) get to wake up later than the time I usually do to go to camp haha

nitez everyone..

2006-12-09T02:55:00.000+08:00

Have been hearing abt stuffs which resemble Multi-level Marketing (MLM) and the pyramid scheme again lately. So for those perhaps interested in knowing more, i find these website rather useful:
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pyramid_scheme

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Multi-level_marketing

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Ponzi_scheme

I guess it has reached the age for us to seriously plan ahead, and earn more money? A stable, down-to-earth traditional way of earning income, or a fast, risk-taking scheme is better?
lol... for those who happens to be wondering, dun worry, i'm not the risk-taking type.
But seriously, there's a thin line separating Opportunities and Fraud, sucess and failure.

Risk or Security? which do u prefer?
Nitez everyone...

2006-12-07T21:35:00.000+08:00

One more day to ord. And starting the Dover ITE work next mon.
Guess it's time to really earn some money and start saving up >.<

2006-12-03T23:52:00.000+08:00

Was browsing through youtube juz now, watched this video of Utada Hikaru performing one of her early songs live. She's still one of the jap singer that I like, though i think that her early songs songs much better compare to more recent ones =)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SsuToF7oEhs

2006-11-28T00:12:00.000+08:00

Did smthing rather differently today. Went to the SPCA with sz and yh in the afternoon. It's my first time there and I was qt suprised at the fact that SPCA is actually a place open to public. As in u can juz walk in there without informing anyone there and then tour the place where they keep all the pets. There's even a small rm whereby u can go in and interact with all the cats in that room and play with them. But when sz and me arrived first, most of the animals were still taking their afternoon nap. so didn't had much to do.

But after a while when the pets woke up it started getting noisy. I like the rm where ppl can play with the cats the most. One of the cat was rather naughty i guess. It appear to be a lapcat which juz sit's quietly at ppl's lap. Then after a few min it starts to chew on sz's bag and even bit her, though it's was only a slight scratch and no open wound. lol. I tried the same thing too, though i got it off once it tried to chew on my clothings haha. It's a rather active cat... and even tried to pick a fight with another cat in the rm after a while. But there are some really quiet ones too. then there's also the very cute hamsters and rabbits, and i even saw a himalayan cat there too... beautiful eyes =) Pity... there wasn't any kitten there today. After that we most prob smell like cat, cos when we got near the cages of the dogs they started barking real loudly.

But seriously, that place isn't really wat I thought it would look like. It's qt run down, and not so properly maintained. But then again, I guess most of the stuffs they have there is qt old le... and perhaps they didn't have much manpower bah, cos it stinks when I first get in, esp near the dog cages. But after a while managed to get used to the smell, so it wasn't so bad... but the environment is definitely no where close to the average pet shop standard. Now I see why they need to raise fund liao.

Anyway received a call and went out to sz's hse after dinner, and meet a few other friends there to taste wine. lol. But seriously, the ice wine that she brought back from canada taste great. Though it'll be even better if they had used a better quality cork so that we dun have to struggle to dig it out of the bottleneck after the top part of it broke off. >.< then watched tv, and some video on youtube b4 gg on.

Think it's been a while since I have typed an entry this long, but not done yet... =p. LOL the company that my dada was working for was taken over by another hong kong firm, so the old boss retrenched everyone b4 the new boss takes over. But my dad was on MC on fri so he didn't know, and when he went back today the new boss already hired back almost all the workers to work for him except the mangement board. haha.. someone explain to me the logic behind it?

and another thing.... hai~.. feel damn broke cos my next mth's pay wun even hit $100. Have been spending qt a lot and not saving too. And so muz really go and get a job soon. I hate feeling poor. dun think I felt as poor as this since sec sch days>.<... though i'm still way richer than i was back then, mathematically. suddenly feel that can't do a lot of things when u r poor..... If i was richer when I was a child most prob I would have taken up music lesson for piano or guitar or even violin... (hahaha can't picture myself playing those >.<... )... but then again if i was richer back then most prob i would have learn a lot of other stuffs. But my parents wasn't really earning much, so juz dun hav the money to go for this extra stuff. And perhaps a gd thing from that is that I never had to go for private tution lesson or tuition classes. Not that there wasn't a need, but it's wise not to spend on this sort of extra stuff... ( my pri sch result was qt borderline most of the time =p).... Then pri sch days passed and entered sec sch days... and started to have the thinking that shdn't spend so much money and save some in case I need it for sch stuff. And then sec sch days also passed and in comes jc and army days.... haha... too late liao.. my childhood is long gone, and most of the stuffs that I want to do as a child, I have already lost the interest in them. haha.... next life bah.

But watever... try to save a bit here and there and find a job immd aft I ord. come to think of it, i'm getting my IC next friday. hei hei... time flies =)

nitez everyone...

2006-11-21T22:03:00.000+08:00

yay~! heihei =p
i'm discharged from physio, and juz two wks before I ord =) haha
Basically dun really have much things to blog abt, since I haven't been doing much except watching anime at one. Still at ep 178 of the animation One Piece, the Skypiea era... still long way to go b4 I reach ep 284.... but it's an enjoyment to watch so many ep at one go becos there's simply too many twist to the plot, and too many ep. =p oh well, got lot's of time anyway

2006-11-13T19:44:00.000+08:00

LOL
had qt a fun day in camp today, which is my last day of work. Though I didn't get Tao3 Pok4, I think I suffered smthing worse. Got pined down by 4 or 5 of my friends, poured water on me and also the "ORD" word written with GREASE on my chest. Totally have no way of resisting at all cos each of them was holding on to one of my limbs xp but think I had qt a gd laugh over it too. Then played ard on the shuttle bus on the way hm too.. hahahha =D a day well-spent esp since I haven't being doing work the whole day. For the rest of the days until my ORD date i'll be clearing leave and settling stuffs like clearance and FFI... and of cos finding work too...

Shd be able to get discharged by my physiotherapist soon, cos she said my knee shd hav recovered to allow me to do normal sports like bball and badminton. And as long as I continue training it I shd be able to manage it on my own.

YAY~! =P

Off to shoot some hoops... =)

2006-11-04T01:10:00.000+08:00

Went for combat shoot yesterday, and my detail did quite well for the day shoot. I got a 14 out of 15, and some of my detail mates even got the full marks for day shoot. Our detail score was over 85% (85.6% if i remembered correctly.. lol) and so hopes were high that we might actually be able to get marksman as long as the total score of day shoot plus nite shoot is 85% and above. In fact, qt a few teams had chances of getting it. But when it comes to the nite shoot.... totally cui-ed. Only get 1 out of 15 ( =S ), even my friend who scored who marks during the days only managed to hit two..... looks like our detail is full of nite bobo shooters lol =p But either way it doesn't matyter since I wun be getting the $200 even if the details get marksmanship. Sadly dun even know any reason I shd go since I supposed to be shooting the combat side one, not the service side... lol waste of time and taxi fare... thpugh i admit I did enjoyed the shooting part... a little.

Anyway went for a dinner with a 2 of my friends, since one of them ORD-ing today and so he's giving a treat... Listening to the that happened in camp today.... lol.... I think the management has seriously gone mad. All the stupid things is turning the company into a circus and lowering the moral of the ppl. It's time like this that I feel damn lucky i'm gg to ord soon. hai~...

Filled up online resume today... weird. First time doing this sort of things, cos I havn't had a proper job in the past... hope i'll be able to get a job that I like soon... *pray hard*

2006-10-30T00:06:00.000+08:00

Hectic wk ahead, at least to me =p cos most prob i'm not gg to be use to it cos hav been qt slack lately. If the kid dun cancel the tuition, then i'll be having lesson on mon, tues, wed nite followed by combat shoot on thurs >.< definitely lack of slp... hai~... shall go slp sonn..
Anyway, had a late dinner followed by a long long chat with jun and jh today. Rather enjoyed it... and think it's qt some time since we sat down and had a long chat... food was not bad too though i ate too full. And by the time we are done I already missed the last bus hm =S damn didn't know that 188's service ends so early on sunday. so had to took a cab hm...
Qt pity the taxi uncle. Most prob will get a ticket for speeding cos he got caught by the speed camera cos he travelled at 80km/h when the limit is 70km/h. Can't blame him i think cos that stretch of road is so wide that it looks like an expressway. And b4 we both knew it there was a flash of light and we saw the "70" speed limit sign... lol....
time to slp le. Qt a nice wkend spent =) nitez everyone~

2006-10-27T23:08:00.000+08:00

a rather bad later half of the wk, cos nthing seems to be gg my way.
Everyone's off got cancelled cos a certain despicable thinks that the previous ORD-ed PC gives us too much off. And so I'm now # days off poorer due to that. Wtf. Totally pissed me off not because my off's been cancelled by 3 days, but because that despicable hypocritic backstabber is the one cancelling it and for no particular important reason at all. wtf.

bad news today cos heard that the hp that's gg to stick with me for one yr plus had some accident and gotten a big scratch on it...

cui-ed.

Samsung service center is the only place where i can change the casing and i have no idea how much it's gg to cost... and since the scratch is on the batt at well i might hav to buy a new batt too... not to mentioned that samsung batt is qt ex..

Sian... though i think it's normal to be concern abt health, I think i'm starting to be paranoid becos of it. Got to stop it b4 it becomes a physcological disorder.

tired...
hai~..

2006-10-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

i know there there's a lot of differences in terms of our interest, the way we handle stuffs as well as our thinking... but I believe that it's not gg to cause us much trouble unless we keep dwelling on it...
Sry I didn't say anything when u told me... but I was rather hurt, not because of the differences that exist, and not because of the doubts that u have in this relationship....

But because of the fact that I'm causing u disappointment time and time again...

I dun like expectations.
Definitely not when they are placed on me.
In terms of realtionships, work or play i'll do what I can, what I want to do. But I juz dun like the feeling of having expectations placed on me by anyone because it's juz give me pressure to meet up with the expectations placed on me...

Like u said, expectation only brings about disapointment... I dun like disappointing ppl, so I dun like not meeting expectation. Which means I dun like having expectations to meet in the first place...
lol.. logical right?

but dun worry... i wun think abt it too much now that I have wrote it down...

2006-10-16T14:35:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging for qt a while... somehow juz dun feel like doing it.. too lazy =p
Anyway, went back to nj to play bball with wb and gang on sat morning. The canteen has been renovated and muz say that it's definitely better than when we were still studying there. It's been a while since I've played with them for almost 2 hr plus... though can feel the after effect of it on sunday... guess my knee is not totally recovered yet =S
ard 1 month plus to ORD, and starting to clear a bit of my off and leave here and there... but more imptly hope I can recover b4 I get my pink IC so that my physiotherapist can discharge me. Otherwise, have to pay for my own med fees since SAF won't be footing the bill anymore =p

2006-09-24T23:41:00.000+08:00

Went to the have lunch with benji, wb, js yesterday at food republic, followed by shopping at kino and pool at the meridian. Muhahaha triple kill =P think i improve a bit since the last time I played pool. Then had lunch with sz's family at the tiong bahru market. It's the ifrst time that I have been there since it renovated, and muz say that it really is a very big improvement from last time since it's much more spacious and have a lot of new stalls. but there's so much new stalls there I can't even tell which is the original stalls that's been there since the old days.

Anyway, went to lot one to meet up with bc, wb, benji and jh, and juz in time to sing 2 songs b4 we left the k-box. Had some laughters over jh ( =p ) and then played pool again, though this time benji and wb got their revenge ( >.< ) but still mange to win most of the 2 v 2 game heihei =) Went to play badminton with my sec sch gang then supper at kfc.

Over the past few wks, the resolve that I formed for not playing any sports till my knee recovers had slowly dissolved away. Realised that perhaps it's still too early for me to be doing these stuffs so frequently. Guess it's time I rest for a few more wks and juz focus on recovering now.. =)

Oh well, long wk ahead... time to slp..

nitez everyone...

2006-09-18T23:50:00.000+08:00

Hmmm...
though it's true I didn't really enjoyed the CS game during the lan gaming, I didn't stay on cos I didn't want to spoil the mood of others. I stayed on simply because I juz treat that as part of hanging out so it doesn't really matter wat we were doing or wat we were playing.

Are we really getting more selfish?

Or perhaps it's juz that we didn't tell each other how we feel or wat we are thinking at that moment and assume that the others will know? especially since u hav known each other since sec 1 that it's juz seems natural not to talk abt it?

guess we all need to do a bit of self-reflection on ourselves..

u need to get stronger mentally...
u can't let thing get to u all the time...
sometimes bad things happen, but once it happen then there's no use bothering over it.
And it's especially useless blaming urself for it even if it's ur fault, because that doesn't help the situation at all.
Get stronger.
U have to get stronger.
Because there may be times whereby I might not be able to bring u out of ur depression too...

2006-09-15T22:52:00.000+08:00

Mentally tired.
Tired from the constant headache that's been bugging me for the past 2 wks.
Tired from the gastric pains that come out of the blue.
Tired of worrying abt this, worrying abt that.
I need to hibernate.
I need to get this irritating headache out of my head for good.
hopefully the medication will work....

Sometimes feel like i'm viewing everything ard me through a small window out of a body that doesn't belong to me. I miss the feeling of running late at night. I miss the feeling of playing bball on the court without worrying abt anything. I want to feel the rush of adrenalin into my head. i need to feel the rapid pounding of my heart.

I need to feel alive.

Hai~... i'm losing myself...

2006-09-11T22:04:00.000+08:00

Last friday was the CO evening and this time round we had it at the newly built CSC. I muz admit that the whole environment there is qt good. The swimming pool there looks impressive too. Although it doesn't have so much features compared to the the je sport complex one, but it's surrounded by so much greenery that it makes the whole place feel so relaxing. But unfortunately the food was qt average, and it's exactly the same but taste slightly worse than the last CO evening's... the entertainment sucks too but had fun chatting with my friends anyway.

Didn't do much on sat. Juz played a bit of badminton, not enuff to aggravate the ligament strain but enuff to give me muscle ache the next day... then had supper at the market near the court..

Sunday was spent having lunch with the guys and hanging out at wb's hse. But I left earlier since I'm having dinner with her family later on.
Phew~
Not as awkward as I thought I would feel, but I realised that it's still quite difficult for me to interact withh ppl sometimes. Juz can't help but feel a bit awkward and lost... hmmm...
perhaps I made a right choice in not choosing business as my choice of study?
who knows..
went through some fragments of the past... brought back qt a lot of memories...
time flies.. =)

Camp to today was tiring. Very tiring. And my jumper's knee acted up again though I didn't do any jumping. Muz be all the walking ard today... so came back hm to take a nap... and damn now I still can't sign on to msn....
Since like all the backstabbing and office politics is starting again.
Oh well... doesn't concern me.
Seen qt a lot these 1 year plus in the army... dun think that it's anything out of the normal.
Gd luck to those being stabbed.
And for those who are doing the stabbing u better watch ur own back.

Sometimes it's juz so hard to understand wat ppl really want, or wat they are searching for.

2006-09-04T22:22:00.000+08:00

Had my second physio session today, did more exercise than last wk. Feels better when I'm walking now cos my knee dun get tired so easily le... but at the moment the therapist told me not to do any jogging yet since the knee structure will still be unstable... how well...

hmmmmmmmmmmm...
I'm aging.....
>.<

2006-08-27T23:12:00.000+08:00

Yesterday's dinner was fantastic =) think it's one of the best dinner I had so far. Everything from the appetizer to the dessert and the drinks are really good... still can imagine wat's it's like when the cod fish melts in the mouths.. *drooling*... and the melon shark fin soup.. fantastic.. not to mention the tender juicy pork ribs and the grilled mushroom... =P Definitely worth the price ^_^

Tao's Resturant at Paradiz Center... shd go there one of these days, and they even have live band at night, though i'm not sure if it's the same for every night. Too bad there's a construction site at the side of the paradiz center... but luckily didn't hear any noise coming fr there since were sitting inside the restaurant

Anyway today was the AHM. Didn't go for the 21 kim run since i'm on excuse till the 20th of nov. But still go for the 10 km run instead. Ran for the first 2 km, after that walk the rest. And thx~... rained so heavily during the run.. completely soaked. But i took so long walking that by the time i reached the endpt the rain stopped and the event was abt to end. =p then went for lunch with my friends b4 gg back hm with a painful knee.

ok.. i admit gg for 10 km with a ligament strain is stupid. But I need to shut something up at the back of my mind. When I strained it 2 month plus ago I nv expect it to affect my ligament since i thought it's jus a normal muscle strain. So I wasn't prepared to stay put of sports for so long... In this 2 months I juz can't keep still... I guess it juz haven't sink in to me yet... It juz feel like it's... wel... can't find the word for that... hmmm... hanging in the air?

But at least I get it out of my mind for now.
The run is juz something that i have to do in order to answer to myself.

So for the next 3 months, absolutely no bball, no jogging for me. No PT attire too unless i'm doing physio in the gym.

juz a sidenote... wasn't intending to go out for the rest of the days cos I REALLY don't few like walking. Didn't even few like waking up fr the 5 hrs nap in the aftn but too bad, got hungry and had to eat smthing... But anyway was called out to a friends hse... rushed there with sz cos we thought smthing happened...

oh well. watever.

2006-08-24T22:00:00.000+08:00

oh well... won't be running the 21km ahm this sun, taking the 10 km one instead... of course i wun be running since I'm on excuse till november... walking the 10 km so taht I can chit chat with my friends... ow it feels lame juz to go there and be a supporter...

Starting my physio tml, the doc said another 3 months shd be enough for the ligament strain to recover =)

2006-08-21T21:40:00.000+08:00

Went k-box with sz, benji, wb, sk, jh, js yesterday... qt enjoyed myself but think jh didn't really sing his heart out cos of his condition =p
On sat went to my friend's hse to have dinner since she's doing the cooking, and think i drank a bit too much and was feeling a bit tipsy by the time i'm abt to go hm... guess i still dun really noe my limits yet... smtimes seem like i can drink a lot while at other time 2 glass of beer can make me drunk.. lol... didn't join them for their late nite game of poker/chat session at the void deck and went hm to slp instead...

Been thinking and wondering wat sort of job shd I look for after I ORD... # more months b4 I'm jobless, 2 more months b4 I start to find a job...
Juz wondering: a long hr, lower-pay slacker job and a shorter hr but higher-pay job more tedious job.. which is better?

hmmmm....

2006-08-10T23:05:00.000+08:00

Went to watch fireworks beside the national stadium last nite... bc, oml, xc, jh wb and me. not bad, think's the display is qt nice, and i really like the one that looks like meteor shower as it rain down from the sky... ^_^ After that we walk all the way to Geylang lorong 24 and had dinner at the "No Signboard" seafood restaurant... more like they had thiers and i watched them eat since i'm not hungry...

Had company cohesion at chervon this aftn... k-ge for 4 hrs b4 we start the bbq. Had a rather gd time, but the food at the bbq wasn't as gd as last time... oh well, the event ended at ard 10pm and juz reach hm ard 30 mins ago..

hmm... when i said i can start jogging soon i guess i'm being too optimistic...
yay~... the old old pain came back while i was walking yesterday...
wah thx~ -_-...

hai~ ... still have to wait till 22nd b4 i can see the specialist... But seriously, not sure if that's gg to be of much help... my sis said that if it's really a ligament strain then it's gg to take a few months or even more than half a year b4 it will fully rec... and till then i'm not even supposed to do light jogging... >.<..

argh~!! ..

hai~... watever~.... see wat the specialist says on the 22nd..

2006-08-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

YEAH~!
Finally the SPCA thing is over. Shagged.. damn shagged... stayed overnight on orchard road on fri, work the whole day on sat, though think my productivity level dropped till 0 by sat evening.. then only reach hm at 1 am plus on sunday morn... and slept till 2 pm plus... after which i took a nap at 4 pm again..

Even wkend guard duty is not so siong haha =p

but the whole event wasn't so bad... though we didn't manage to reach the target, it's an experience... oh and muz thx my friend who came down after work from camp to support me... and also js, wb and jh... thx for showing up, and for showing up only hahaha =p

and there was this cosplay thing gg on at cine... didn't had time to go but saw 2 ppl dressing up as the 3rd sqyard captain Ichimaru and the 6th squard captain Byakuya... haha looks a bit funny...

oh well, knee finally starting to improve a bit... hope i can start rebuilding my stamina soon...

2006-08-02T22:12:00.000+08:00

Went to help out the prep of the SPCA stuffs... the event is on this coming sat but seems like a lot of things is not in place yet... hope everything will turn out fine for them on that day itself..
With all the new management taking over looks like they have finaaly decided to step up the discipline in the coy.but seriously, i wonder how long it's gg to take for them to get used to it if tehy can't even do a thing as simple as not throwing trash in ur own changing rm so that u won't feel like the first place u enter in the coy line everyday in a rubbish dump. But then again, since it's juz a place to dump their things while they are at work I wonder if anyone really cares abt it anyway.

I'm sry... looks like i'm not of much help...
I know u have a lot of things to do, a lot of stuffs unsettled and u r under a lot of stress...
maybe u r right... perhaps I dun really understand u at all... izzit because I didn't try hard enough?
or maybe I dun really understood u as well as I thought...
I know u r not angry at me or anything...
but still...
I was a bit hurt when u said sometimes I dun understand u at all.
sorry....

Take care of ur health k? pls dun fall sick before the event... dun push urself too hard...
all the best...

2006-07-29T12:26:00.000+08:00

haven't been blogging..
cos too lazy
haha.. =p

2006-07-21T18:03:00.000+08:00

Bad luck. Bad bad luck today.
Sorethroat, flu, and gastric pain... and i think my temp is gg up again. The necklace which I bought for her during her b'dae broke as well. And thx~ my fridge broke down and the roses which I kept in ice for 6 to 7 years long is gone for gd. The ice melted and time which have once been suspended fot the 2 roses begin to move again...
oh well.

Rest in Peace bah.

Hope this streak of bad luck ends soon.

2006-07-16T00:21:00.000+08:00

interesting day. went to a chinese sensei since there's totally no improvement in my knee strain and i'm so tired of eating painkillers that i dun feel like gg to a western doc. Before I told him wat the other docs said it's a muscle strain he told me I strained my ligament.

Ya thx.

After 2 or 3 doc keep assuring me that it's only a muscle strain now someone else told me it's a ligament strain. Oh well it's gg to get better after a wk of the med he given me...

How abt telling me something that I haven't been hearing for the past 2 months? few days + few days + few days... for goodness's sake get ur maths right.

ya sure, I'll try not to engage in strenuous activities....
I bet this morning's 800 metre run on the treadmill with a pace that even a primary sch kid can outrun me is strenuous. strenuous sia. I'm sure.

One thing's for sure. It's not gg to recover anytime soon. Hope maybe i can walk down the stairs tml without that annoying slight pain that always make the effort to make it's presense felt so that maybe for a brief moment I can actually forget that I can't run can't jog can't jump without having this fear that the same pain is gg to come back again and again and again until it irritate me so much that I rather nv pick up bball before nv bother to try running the ahm nv bother to maintain my stamina in this slack company whereby so many ppl have the ability to run but everyone juz grumble and grumble and grumble when it comes to training and prefer to sit there and watch the others run past or walk behind taking their own sweet time to chitchat and chat and chat... and i'm so bloody irritated that I hav no idea how i'm gg to end this paragraph.............................................................................................................................................

wtf.

ya i wonder. besides bball and the fact that we spent two years of our life in njc. How well do i know u all? How strong will our friendship be if each of us hav a diff interest? sometimes ppl tend to hav doubts abt things during particular phrases of our life... I guess that phrase had come bah.......

Perhaps ppl changed and I can no longer keep up with u all...

sry... i didn't mean to ...

2006-07-10T20:48:00.000+08:00

Enjoyed the ecp bbq and the cycling on sat nite though i arrived damn late =p not only that alighted that the wrong bustop and was qt far away from the bbq site... which in the end took a cab down to mac to meet jh and rent the bike.. but even for that stretch of road it was traffic congestion all the way till mac there... think it might have been faster if i walk lor lol but nvm~ save the walking. Ate a bit of food, and soon set off the to do some cycling... tried to go out of ECP but guess there are juz too many of us and too many traffic roads... in the end went back cos we fihured that it's juz too dangerous liao... anyway went bedok jetty and then to mac to watch the soccer match, which i slept through once again... by morning everyone more or less fell aslp le... then went home had a short rest and 5 mins of dota (cos the host fell aslp juz a few mins into the game '''-_-) b4 gg to je k-box to clelebrate bc's b'dae =) had fun singing though it seems nv ending at one pt in time haha ... had dinner b4 gg back home and vomit it out .. >.< my gastric has been screwed up again... hai~ time to drink more milk =(

2006-07-02T21:55:00.000+08:00

Hmm... I miss the feeling of jogging and playing bball to my heart's content... as much as I miss the first nite of the june sec sch chalet whereby we cycled during the nite where there's very few ppl at ECP... basically juz sped without worrying abt getting into other ppl's way... no worries, didn't hav much things on my mind... felt like a little child juz playing with a new found hobby with nthing else to worry about... But I guess it's impossible to stay that way too long...

not that i'm thinking a lot now but it juz felt weird... Had this feeling that i'm viewing the world and listening to things through this small window... not being able to get out... dunnoe whether it's because I can't or I dun want to... Doing things and laughing aloud though deep down somewhere there's someone that is not laughing and juz quietly stood there watching myself laugh and have fun... Engaging in conversations and feeling as if I'm listening to other ppl talking outside the little window of a room i'm in....

weird... muz be my pessimistic nature in action again...

2006-07-02T03:14:00.000+08:00

It's 3:11 am in the morning and amazingly i'm still awake... Juz had a cold shower and now i'm munching cookies.... though most prob i shdn't be doing that cos i haven't been doing much exercise for the past few weeks le... Oh well didn't really do much on fri and sat...

On friday nite, went to bc's place with wb, sk, jh and watch the match with oml and bc.... But slept thru most of the match hehe =p didn't realise I was so tired... fell aslp after the first gaol... wake up every now and then but didn't manage to stay awake more than 5 mins b4 gg back to slp again... so by the time i'm fully awake the shootout was over and germany won... oh well, nice match.. haha took a cab home and slept till 11 am in the morning... and then had my tuition b4 coming back home to slp again... yay~ retired lifestyle =)

Had been spending a lot of time in front of my computer.... after dinner came back home to play dota with the guys again... then watched the england vs protugal match on the internet.. and finally managed to finish reading my friend's blog.. from last year jan till now... Luckily she didn't update everyday otherwise there will be no end to it =S

3:22am... better get back to slp... though there's no bball in the morning... still gg to wake up at 11am to watch tv...

And still can't access wb sk and js's blog sometimes... always have this irritating " click here to dl active X control" windows that pop out and regardless of wat I choose either to rub it or cancel it it still cos my IE to hang >.< hai~... and ya... dun think i'll be playing bball in the coming wk... or maybe wks...

nitez everyone... rather gd morning...

2006-06-27T22:46:00.000+08:00

sian.

2006-06-25T22:24:00.000+08:00

Met up with wb and jh for lunch at lot 1, after which js joined us as well to rent some dvd back to wb's hse to watch. Had some good laughs watching "The Maid" ya it's suppose to be a scary movie but some how we managed to turn all the scary scene into a joke lol hahaha luckily we are not watching in a cinema otherwise we would have laugh our heads off. Then foolowed by another jap sci-fi movie which I forgot it's name liao... a very long and torturous 3 hr, which most of the time dun even know wat the story is talking abt, plus it's freaking draggy. The movie only link everything up in the last ten minutes... so basically had to endure 2 hr and 50 mins of overwhelming-but-not-outstanding computer graphics and confusing fight scenes... >.< then went to have dinner at lot one again..

Didn't join my sec sch gang for k-ge since they went all the way to marina while i'm at cck that area.. too rush liao.. Anyway qt enjoyed the movie watching =) gd chillout time hanging with the usual gang since i hav MIA for qt sometime le... ^_^ Now looking forward to the bbq on the 8th of july =D

After more than one and a half month my muscle strain haven't recover... or rather cos i keep straining it again and again...
did that once more yesterday though not as serious this time... Oh well.... basically juz push it too far cos I'm sick of it... really sick of it... getting increasing fustrated cos it's juz taking too freaking long..

too bad... I dashed the hope of recovering b4 july.. dashed in my own hands...
Guess I'm juz asking for it. hai~... sian~..

2006-06-24T01:58:00.000+08:00

Came across a photo taken from one of the gatherings I have been to.. In the photo everyone is smiling... But i wonder exactly how many ppl were feeling happy at that time... perhaps it's juz a pose for the pic... or perhaps they were really able to forget wat's ever is bothering them in their mind during that gathering... but i guess it's impossible to know wat one is really thinking about... or even the perspective of other's towards u....Maybe certain opinions might have been left out in conversations because they treat u as a friend and so they are afraid of spoiling the friendship... but doesn't that shows how little faith was placed in the friendship between the ppl?

hmmm....

Oh well.... it's gg to be a month b4 she comes back... hai~

2006-06-18T18:50:00.000+08:00

Back from the chalet... as usual gg to blog abt it... but before that something else first. The gastric flu that I had last wk wasn't really an entirely bad thing after all =)
Firstly the 3 days off work provided enough time for the skin irritation on my knee tat i got from using the anti-inflammation gel too often to compeletly fade off. So no more rashes hehe ^_^
Secondly i always wanted to lose a few more kg to take the stress off my knee a little... but since i can't really jog for long period now it's qt hard for me... esp when i'm not really gd at controlling the stuff i eat... but apparently that few days where i didn't had much to eat help me shed off 2kg... yay~ =P momentary happiness... since most prob i'm gg to gain it back in a wk or two.... hope i dun though....
Thirdly i quit my coffee addiction... haven't had a cup of coffee since mon... though had the thought of drinking coffee occasionally, apparently the flu screwed up my gastric so bad that the thought of the coffee taste in my mouth somehow makes me hav second thoughts.... most prob gg to start drinking again in few days or so.... but not as much as i use to in the past bah...
And most imptly, I get to see her almost everyday this wk since she has been coming to my hse to take care of me... got to spend more time together.... esp when it's less than a wk b4 she goes canada for a month for her student exchange prog......

Still waiting for my slp-deprived friend to wake up so we can hav dinner.... think by the time i finish this long entry he won't be awake yet...

And now more abt the chalet... It starts on friday aftn and ends this morning but I only reach there on the fri nite since i hav to go back to camp in the morning. Met sk and wb for dinner at westmall first b4 I meet her at je and took mrt to bedok followed by a cab to the ecp chalet. By the time we reach there wp was already a bit drunk though he insist that he's not.. lol.. Watched soccer for a while b4 yh, lh, linda, hy and me went for nite cycling. The feeling of it is juz damn shiok ^_^ There's not much ppl ard in ecp late at nite, so I can juz go cycling at a fast spped and feel the wind blowing past my ear without worrying abt crashing into other ppl's bike.... damn shiok... haven't really had this sort of feeling since I stopped jogging at nite... Cycle all the way to the bedok jetty where there's a lot of ppl fishing and some ppl camping. Had a taste of ferrying ppl on the double bike, and me and yh tried to teach hy how to cycle.. meanwhile linda and lh went back to the chalet to get smething to eat while we continued.. After a while we moved to the cycling track near the seafood center since she said that the jetty is not a gd place to learn cycling... there we spent another hour or two trying to teach her... improvement there is but she didn't manage to get it ... at ard close to 2 am sz and lh joined us again... stayed till ard 4 am bah b4 we went back to the chalet and as usual i went to slp..

Then on the second day we went to have lunch and went into 2 of my senior from nj choir, one of them is from css choir sas well... They opened a waffle shop there... huacheng is one of the owner of the shop too... so some of us had lunch there.... then we spent much of the sftnn back at the chalet deciding wat to do and watching tv... After alex and wh joined us, we went out again.. some go for kayaking and some kite flying... Played till ard 6 plus b4 gg back to the chalet to change.. went to the hawker at ecp after ws joined us at ard 9.. Got to eat a lot of things that i haven't been eating for the past few days =) And discovered one thing too... I'll lose my sense of balance after I'm too full =S Cycled a double bike there but in the end had to cycle a single one back since i can't control the double bike..=p Almost lost control a few times too when i'm cycling back..lol

Accompanied sz back to the chalet to rest since she's not feeling well.... while the rest continued the nite cycling. Didn't go cycling too since apparently I overdid it the precvios nite/morning... hai~ the damn knee haven't recover yet... But anyway... after slping for a while i dun feel like getting up.. Got up once to take a shower when the others came back from a break... but the shower juz made me felt more like slping... hahaha... slept all the way to 8 in the morning while some went to watch the sunrise... damn missed the sunrise-watching for this chalet again. Then check-out this morning b4 taking a cab back home and slp... as usual think i'm one of the few who slept the most for this chalet again =p

Hmm... someone told me that our sec sch class chalet is a complicated thing.... I think perhaps maybe there's been qt a few intra-group luv crushes gg on in the past bah... hahaha =P But maybe there's more to it which i dun really notice... Time passes and ppl change... both physically as well as mentally... i think it's qt a miracle that the 10 plus of us are still qt close after gg through the jc and the army period... Though not everyone showed up for the gathering all the time i would say that we feel qt close together bah... In the past there are a few among us which dun really strike a conversation with a specific few cos we dun feel that close enuff to really talk abt personal stuff... but i guess that has improved among certain ppl in the group... can tell cos they can sit down and talk for hours during the long nite... Qt a few of us agreed that this group of us are gg to be lifelong friends... and some thinks that me and her are most prob wun breakup... esp since the two of us hav so many common friends that if we did the effect will more or less ripple through the whole group... hehe... I hope we won't ever break up too ^_^

But I find it a bit sad that though the bonds strengthed among some of us... some hav slowly moved away from the group bah.... I guess it can't be helped... but still find it sad nevertheless... and also... i choose to believe that things are wat they seems to be... cos I dun feel like gg into anything that might lukes beneath the seemingly calm surface... and i hope tat nthing lies below it.... But sometimes it frightnes me a little when i imagined that wat if all the bonds and friendships are nthing but false illusions? I hope i'm juz thinking too much bah... For them, i'll try to treat each of them with eaqual priority and be there if they ever need me ( of course needless to say one of them is gg to take higher priority than the rest.. hahaha bleah~ ).... No matter wat, they are friends that I'm really luvky to hav... and really want to treasure...

and finally gg to end this entry soon since my slp-deprived friend finally woke up ard 10 mins ago... b4 that for sk the hardcore clubber and bc who led him astry (=P) : dun 'swim' too much in the S'pore pools during the world cup period hor.. i dun want to see the both of u drown in it.. hahaha so wanna watch soccer on the coming wkend?

and i think i need to increase the RAM of my com liao... and also get a webcam soon... hai~ need more $$ =S

2006-06-14T19:50:00.000+08:00

been on MC since yesterday cos of a gastric flu... think i vomited 8 or 9 times yeterday alone and the med that the doc give didn't work... in the end went down for an injection and extended my mc since my fever went up despite taking the med... bascially didn't really had much appetite... but can't help feeling hungry... can't eat too much ow i'll feel like vomiting again.. =S ..oh well... luckily i got someone to nurse me back to health ^_^

2006-06-09T20:53:00.000+08:00

Damn.

Went for the run at Pasir Ris park for the AHM training. Ran 2km, walk the next 4km, then limbed the next 2km back to the start point.
One of the first few to ran off, but one of the last to return. This feeling sux. I hate to be the last.
Been a month since i played bball or did any particularly strenous excercise and it still haven't recover. Went to see the doc today... Overused of the knee... and she's not sure when it'll fully recover.. worst case scenario it'll come back everytime i exert them too much.
Need to strengthen the knee joint, need to take joint supplement.

Damn.

2006-06-04T20:09:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
Lingering feelings, regrets, unrequitted love, doubts, pain.... things that weighs a person down, things that make a person afraid of drowning in his or her own thoughts... Things which brings abt sadness, pain and helplessness not only to him or herself but to the ppl ard them as well...
How long muz one hold on to regretfulness before they can pay for the mistakes that they made?
How long muz one hold on to the feeling of loving someone knowing that there may never be a day whereby their love is returned?
How long muz long cast doubt upon oneself or others... not knowing what to believe or who to trust...
How long muz one carry on the scars from the past and forever hiding it from others around them... afraid to let other ppl see it... afraid of making the same mistake and inflict another scar upon themselves... hiding in a small world of their own, safe from those who might hurt them, yet distanting themselves from those who might actually help heal their scars, lighten their burden and move on with them... how long will this little world of theirs last before it completely segregate itself from others, crumble upon it's own stress and take the person inside along with it?
All these boils down to not being able to let go... Of course it's always easier said than done..
"Juz let it go...." easy words to say, yet so hard to do.. But no matter wat advice love ones and friends can give, whether to heed them or not is entirely up to one's self... The best thing that they can do is perhaps shows u that u still have ppl who care for u in this world... so that even if ur own world crushes down there will be someone out there to take care of u...

It's hard to control how a person feels... Certain times u juz can't help it if u have a certain feeling... feeling of joy.. sadness... yet it's up to u to control wat u wants to do...

Waiting for someone to accept ur love though knowing that it might not happen is gg to bring sadness and disappointment... but since u chose to wait, then be prepare to pay the price. No one will stop u from waiting or hold u at gunpoint if u decided to let it go.. But pls do consider: will it be worth it even if in the end nthing gd comes out of it? Are u really gg to hang on to this feeling and drown urself in it? If u make the decision to let it go, endure with the pain and let time heal ur wounds... if u decide to continue waiting, all the best to u, but dun indulge urself in sadness and self pity... it'll only make ur wait seems longer and more painful. Dun regret the decision u've made for it is u who have chosen this path... so when the time comes to accept the consequences, take it. Same thing goes for every other decision being made. Once done things cannot be undone, the arrow of time flows in one direction and only one. No use feeling regret for something which can never be undone.

doubts... something that everyone feels every now and then.. but when it comes to having doubts on someone close to u, having doubts abt whther to trust him/her, it gets troublesome..
But i guess when it come to trust, there's really not much help the ppl ard u can give... someone can help u to trust a certain person... the decision lies entirely with u. No matter wat sort of oath or promise that he/she give, it all boils down to wehther u trust that he/she is not making empty promises... But whatever promise u made... whether u promise to trust him/her, make the decision and dun look back... If u decide to trust him/her, trust him/her with all ur heart and cast all the doubts away.. otherwise this trust is only superficial and won't hold for long... if u dun trust him/her... then end the relationship and move on. And if there come a time whereby ur trust is betrayed... then there's no point hanging on to the relationship anymore... no doubt u'll feel hurt.. but at least u can tell urself that u have put in ur effort in maintaining this relationship..

oh well, juz some thoughts =) things are more or less qt smoothsailing for me.. though i can't say the same for some of my friends ard me.... Got sunburned because of the fatigue part work at changi naval base on wed and thurs... seriously wonder how my friends survive being an RP there... and had a slight fever on friday nite which rcovered after a 3 hr nap... haha and managed to wake up in time to watch tv =P hmm... been qt a while since i played bball... still haven't totally rec from my strained knee... but if nthing goes wrong i shd be able to play in a wk or 2... hopefully =)

2006-05-26T21:23:00.000+08:00

hmmm... wanted to blog yest's nite... but dun really know how to put it in words...
hmmmmmmmmm =S
nvm..
hahaha

2006-05-26T00:03:00.000+08:00

Feel qt bad... cos I discovered that I'm still holding on to a letter that I'm supposed to help deliver on behalf of someone years ago.... can't remember why I forgotten abt it back then.... most prob didn't had a chance to pass it to him and it juz slip my mind... and so the letter remain in my possession, kept together with the piles of cards which i received over the yrs... called the related ppl immediately when I found this out... but years have passed... guess it's too late liao...
Wonder if things will turn out differently for them if he had received the letter....

Anyway, brought her to my hse and met my mum and sis... think they were both suprised since they didn't know i'm in a relationship.. hahaha =)

2006-05-23T22:30:00.000+08:00

Went back to commonwealth sec on friday morning tog with a few friends and meet up with our english teacher whom they were particularly close to... dun think she rem me anyway since i have changed qt a lot during the past few years... then we actually ran into our sec 4 form teacher as well.. or rather, she ran into us cos we didn't expect to see her there... thought she already left or smthing... but sure brings back a lot of memories....

Anyway, after that went to IMM Giant to get the stuff for the chalet as well as the bbq on sat... bought qt a lot of things and so have to take a cab there... we bked two rms of the sentosa coasta sands, and both are qt small... especially the freaking small fridge... hardly enuff space to put all the stuff in... anyway, went to play a bit of "volleyball" ( can't really say it's a volleyball game since no one there really knows how.. hahaha ) and frisbee too... then had dinner at subway b4 gg to sunset bay where we stayed for a while... Feels really great to meet up with so many sec sch friends at the same time, especially some of them whom i have not seem in qt a while... but i'm glad that we dun feel as though each other have become stranger or smething... After that went back to the rm... didn't have much slp the previous day so i fell aslp qt early( as usual) and missed out a lot of their games that they play in the other rm during the middle of the night =( .. but cos of the freaking cold aircon in the rm that i'm slping in i'm juz too lazy to get up... haha... trembling in the cold... but had a really gd slp =)

Wake up ard 8 plus in the next morn while most ppl still fast alsp... went to nj funtasia in the aftnn to meet up with the guys, but didn't spend much time there cos besides the crowd, not really much things to do... or rather we juz dun really want to do anything? i dunnoe... seems like the usual clique is getting bored with life... But nj did change qt a bi... new facilities and new look... anyway, we left ard one hr later and went to coro's prince coffee hse.. poor sk only step into the gate for a few sec since he bk out late and by the time he reached we were already leaving... went back to sentosa and reach there at ard 5pm.. started the bbq at ard 6 plus.. and only ended the bbq at ard 10pm... really enjoyed the bbq this time since not only the food is much better, but there was more ppl too.... if i rem correctly ard 20 ppl.. yay~ =) Thought that they were gg to play some weird games at nite again... but guess i was wrong.. think i'm the first to fell alsp (once again) and by the time i woke up was already 6 plus in the morn and most ppl were slping... guess they were tired cos of the lack of slp the previous nite... Certain things happened which makes me wonder whether i'm being considerate enough or pay enough attention to her... though I know she dun mind all these but I wonder if i'm doing my part well enough...

Anyway, a few of us went to k-box after the chatlet... this time didn't lose my voice.. thx partially to the gin that they brought.. guess alcohol does helps to warm up the throat a bit.. =P reached hm on sunday nite at ard 9 plus..... And I think this wkend is a well spent one ^_^

Nthing much on monday except gg to kahtib camp as part of the fatigue party for the atheletic meet, most of the time juz waiting for stuff to do... went to the lib to meet up with her as well as return a bk that i finally finished reading...

As for today, my tutee got back his result... Disappointing. He failed his maths... now i'm hoping he'll get back his test paper... I'm qt interested to see wat sort of math qns killed 3/4 of his classmates... and as usual he had a low pass for his science... hai~...

Returned home with a slightly sore knee today though i didn't do much except walking... qt envy of the people playing bball when i pass by a bball court today.... Feel as if it's a long time since i can truly enjoy myself playing or jogging without gg home with a sore knee... and though i sux at bball i still enjoy it very much... in fact i dun even rem wat my knee shd feel like in it's normal state... now... hmm.. maybe it's time i stop playing for a long long time bah...
hai~...

2006-05-16T22:38:00.000+08:00

hav the urge to go for a bit of jogging or bball by myself tml after work... but if i do that, most prob won't be able to work properly the next day bah....
Damn... >.<...

went out of anime to watch liao... unless i rewatch some of it again... Hopefully the next ep of Bleach or Blood+ come out soon...

2006-05-14T17:15:00.000+08:00

Reached home at ard 4am on sat morning after the class gathering, and wake up at 8 plus with a low low voice cos of the k-ge session which lasted for abt 4 hour plus... luckily didn't completely lose my voice ow can't teach tuition liao...

went for some jogging, seems like the strain on my right knee haven't recover yet... better still, the one on my left is back.. Great. Juz great. Darn =(

So had tuition in the afternn, and my tuitee make fun of me by imitating my voice and delibratly reading in a low tone.. lol had a few good laugh though... then more or less rotted thru the rest of the sat after that...

This morning went for bball with the usual gang... and most prob the last bball game in the few weeks to come since i'm having my sec sch class chalet on the coming wkend, and have duty on the 28th... hopefully by then it'll get better... ow most prob not gg to play bball in june too... hai~..

2006-05-11T01:17:00.000+08:00

Have been able to keep myself qt busy lately... except in camp where there's not much work to do. But still feels gd to be in the company of other ppl...

Found it easier to slp with the music playing... but more or less used to it..
7 more days =)

2006-05-08T16:40:00.000+08:00

Seems so natural to have her around that I almost forogtten how scary lonliness feels... especially when there's nthing to keep ur mind occupied it feels as though all the other things around juz doesn't seem to matter anymore......

10 more days to the 18th...

2006-05-07T00:12:00.000+08:00

Spent the saturday nite at home listening to the songs that she compied as well as watching Tsubasa Chronicles... was supposed to meet my sec sch friends by didn't cos of the fever that suddenly came abt in the aftnn... so more or less slept thru the day... hmm... not a very gd way of spending a wkend, but at least my muscle ache isn't so bad le... though most prob won't go for the bball in the morning bah....

sunday... 11 more days to the 18th...

2006-05-06T10:53:00.000+08:00

Due to the unneccersay IPPT that Take place on wednesday, i'm still aching over over.. guess i've been slacking for too long liao... jump SBJ also jump till everywhere is aching... furthermore didn't pass it too =S But received a call yesterday that they found the previous result which indeicates i passed and already cleared my IPPT window this yr.. LOL thxthx~~ But nvm, received a wonderful gift and spent the b'dae well with her =)

And so my b'dae came and go.. and so my age starts with the digit "2" liao... =S sounds so old...

wake up this morning feeling a bit of loneliness...
12 more days to the 18th...

2006-05-01T14:41:00.000+08:00

hmm.. i envy those who already map out their life in the future... and those who already set their goals and know wat they are gg to achieve. Even though they may encounter setbacks and hav doubts abt whether the path they take is the right one for them, at least they already hav a rough sense of direction... a rough idea abt where they are heading. I guess it's much better than still trying to figure out where to go or even which direction to head.. but at least i'm sure that army is definitely not the career that i'll even consider about. I chose mech enginerring not knowing wat i can do or wat I really want to do after i graduate, and i'm not really sure wat working life will be like, since i haven't really take up a proper job yet... but right now i'm not really interested in choosing a path yet. Shall wait till I ORD and use that 8 months b4 school starts and go explore... hopefully by then i'll hav a clearer picture of wat the working society is like...

2006-04-25T23:04:00.000+08:00

Had a great bball game juz know with a few of my sec sch friends who happened to be on off tonite.. i think it's been more than a year since i last played with them.. actually can't even remember if i even did so during jc 2.. but the feeling's not bad ^_^ had some good laughs... in fact i think i felt more tired from the laughing than the game itself =D
Off to slp liao... otherwise will become a walking zombie tml..

nitez~ and sweet dreamz ^_^

thx for making the trip down to watch us.. hope the match and our lame jokes entertained u =p

2006-04-23T23:02:00.000+08:00

Went for a bball game with the guys this morn, felt more tiring than last sun's one, maybe cos of the freaking hot weather, and most prob cos of the first game too... still not much improvement in bball... hai~.. but had qt some fun though, and manage to play till Mac's breakfast hour is over haha..... still feeling the strain on the kneecap... guess it's not fully recovered from the last one yet... >.<...

but anyway, went to play lan in the aftnn at sunshine plaza again, then after that went over to ntu where our bunch of friends is still mugging there... qt glad that i actually made this trip down... cos it's actually the first time that i'm physically there for her when she needs me... most prob today's the last time i'll be gg there since tml's her last paper, after which is the long long sem break le... and it also means i'm gg to have less chance of seeing her once she went on her trips to malaysia and canada....
hmm.. suan le... better not think abt it now... time to slp le ^_^

nitez and sweet dreamz~

2006-04-16T00:47:00.000+08:00

Went to sort out my cardboard juz now.. was initailly juz trying to put certain things in place, but once i started on it somehow juz dun feel like stopping... muz be retribution for letting all my cardboard collect dust... So spent half an hour in the middle of the night sorting out the stuffs... which is something that i will only do once or twice a year, and definitely not during midnight...... Found qt a lot of useless trash inside... but also realised that i actually had the tendency to keep certain things which i find memorable or meaningful into one specific slot.. things like small soft toys from god knows when i got it, sec sch class photo, b'dae presents, keychains, greetings cards that i received etc etc... All the small small stuffs that helps me recall a fragment of my past and reminds me of the time that i spent with those who accompany me for a small part of a life's journey.. some of whom might not hav a chance of meeting again..
hmmm... inside that small small cude i found a space which truly belongs to me... =)

2006-04-14T00:30:00.000+08:00

hmmm...
let's see how i shd blog this..... basically spent my day at the expo bookfair, followed by dinner and tuition and stuffs... but most of the time dun really know wat i'm doing or why i bother to make comments and stuffs or even speak since i dun really know wat i'm gg to say or wat i'm supposed to say... not when my mind in sort of like in a blank state whereby there appears to be some stuffs in the background and yet when u try to concentrate and see wat it means it juz fade a way and blend in again so that basically i got no idea wat i'm toking abt or wat i'm intending to say or do... hmm... haven't totally recover from that sate yet... the slight uneasisness and unnerving jitters still seems to be bugging me...

hmmmmm...
ok, so i gathered that i'm not as mentally strong as i shd be. As my friend said when someone is sad or something if u r gg to be able to comfort the other person then u muz stay strong urself or something like that, but seems that i'm not really doing that, but juz plunged in without much consideration, and end up more or less with a rather uneasy feeling or sometime even in a bad mood.. but i guess i can't help it... and it seems that i hav trouble handling too many things at one go...though it wasn't really a lot of things at all... hmmm... juz can't seem to be a good listener... or rather juz dun feel like i want to be one when i'm not even sure of wat's occupying my mind now. I doubt that i'll be listening to anything at all if i were actually to listen with a state of mind like tat...

hmm.. was gg to write something else but forgot wat i was planning to write abt... forget it.. my mind is not thinking straight today...

2006-04-10T23:21:00.000+08:00

101 ways that u can use ur oven

#2 : Creating ur own Foam Party

step one: select a good piece of soap, according to ur personal preference.
step two: Place the soap in the oven and turn up the heat
step3: If nthing goes wrong foams shd be overflowing out of the oven...

Explanatin: The microwave heats up the tiny air bubbles and the moisture trap in the soap, causing it to expand rapidly thus causing the rapid formation of a large amout of foams. Not a bad way to clean the oven.

P.S. Prepare more soap.. and mops too.

Juz took out 2 of my wisdom tooth... >.< hurts more than the last ime.. but one week of mc and slacking at home

Muhahha

2006-04-02T23:43:00.000+08:00

101 ways of using a microwave oven:

#01 : Creating lighting arcs with 2 simple steps..

step 1: Place a metallic object with sharp corners into the microwave oven.

step 2: Close the oven, turn on the heat and stay clear.

Explanation: The high frequency of the microwaves provides an alternating electric field that changes it's direction billions of time per second, not only causing the internal energy of the metallic atoms ( which has a partial charge due to the delocalisation of the electron cloud around the atom... something to do with the Uncertainty Principle ) to increase due to the vibrations induced, and causing the sea of electrons to go berserk. Sharp corners in the object allows the accumulation of charges to the extent that air is no longer able to insulate, and thus the electron will be pull across the air towards the wall of the microwave oven, causing a mini lighting arc

CAUTION : Either get a very good stain remover to scrub the burnt mark, or prepare the money to buy a new microwave oven..

decided to stop playing bball for a while... until i think my knee gets better.. hopefully it'll juz take a few days.. meanwhile think i'll kill my time with more of this lame entries ..
hahaha =)

2006-04-02T14:05:00.000+08:00

Did orderly duty yesterday, and helped out with the IPPT test that was conducted yesterday morning, and things went on quite smoothly since it wasn't a large group of ppl... juz regulars, mostly officers and sergeants...

hmmm... i guess for some of them, IPPT is juz a show, a criteria for them to meet inorder to keep their career... of course, the same thing goes for me, it's juz a criteria that i have to meet. But i dun think i'll ever go to that extent in order to pass it or get a silver... haha.. but guess i'm more or less used to these things in the army le..

Anyway, meet up with the guys this morning to play bball.. hmm.. ran out of breath quite fast... Guess i'm getting old le... With the backaches and the same old prob every now and then i wonder if this body can last till i get pass the age of 30... haha... too think i'm still only 19 =S

and yes, i'm still 19.. +++... haha.. can still call myself a teenager.. muhahaha For those whose age starts with a digit 2, bleah~ =P

2006-03-28T23:03:00.000+08:00

Last day of my MC today... gg back to camp.. and heard that there's qt some changes over juz the past few days... anyway, haven't been doing much for the past few days.. went to k-ge with the gang on satnite/sun morn then stay over and wb's hse.. qt fun.. since it's qt a long time since we went k-box tog le...

dunnoe wat else to type le.. since i'm juz trying to pass my time.. haha..

now i think i'm not making sense.. haha..

hai~.. so fast miss u le...

2006-03-23T20:50:00.000+08:00

LA on my gum wearing off le... can feel it... but that on my lip still there.. LOL.. can't completely enjoy my dinner... >.<...

hai~... shall start my anime marathon to cheer myself up =)

2006-03-23T20:13:00.000+08:00

Had ATP yesterday.. reminds me of BMTC days since that was the last time i fired any rounds... anyway, manage to get a good rifle which only give a single IA... and luckily that was during the practice round. So if nthing goes wrong my result shd be able to get me a M16 marksmanship.. muhahaha =)

anyway, met up with her for lunch b4 extracting the wisdom teeth on my left side.. lol the LA part actually hurt more than the extraction part... but i nv know that taking out the tooth had to use THAT much strength.. basically juz tensed up my whole body so i won't get pulled of the bed.. hahaha.. maybe a bit exaggarated.. but my palm was sweating from clenching my fist... get to bring my wisdom teeth home... 1 whole one and 2 halfs... since they had to drill apart the lower one to take it out... hmmm... mouth still numb from the LA... effect haven't wear off yet... and the bleeding haven't completely stopped either...guess have to wait a while longer b4 i can have my dinner... blueberry yogurt=)

thx for always making an effort to find some time for us out of ur busy schedule... i really appreciate it =)

2006-03-19T20:21:00.000+08:00

realised how i miss her even though i didn't see her for juz one week...

Anyway, this early morning we decided to let our sec sch gang of friends know this... today is the 2 wk anniversary of me and sz as a couple... hehehe...

^_^

2006-03-17T01:15:00.000+08:00

went for the IMT yest( thurs) aftnn.... which we only know that we have to go one day b4 cos it's a sudden change of ppl... basically we were replacement for those ppl whose supposed to go but can't make it cos of their overseas attachment. Wah thx~ to the incompetency of the person whose in charge of this... end up have to gor for ATP next wed... hai~...
nvm~ anyway, went for platoon cohesion at pasir ris coasta sand chalet for bbq, but was qt late when the bunch of us who went ATP reached there... more or less finished their BBQ liao...
but did stay for a few hrs though... watch them play playstation, chat etc etc... then doze off on the bed.. haha.. i really can slp anywhere anytime... haha bad habit...

anyway... planning to officially make it know on sat nite after we go for a concert.. meanwhile, muz put on an act when gg out with the rest during that concert... so they won't find out yet... haha.. sounds fun... but think it's gg to be hard... >.<

2006-03-13T21:51:00.000+08:00

Went for a dental apptment at Ah this afternn... all my wisdom teeth is growing out of place, and the bottom one is growing perpendicularly... wa thx thx~
hai~... gg to remove it once and for all.. first surgery on next thurs, then the other one in april so that meanwhile i can still chew with one side... hai~...
think i'll survive with icecream during that period...
haha

2006-03-09T22:53:00.000+08:00

=)
haha... in very good mood lately... hehehe
^_^

2006-03-05T22:45:00.000+08:00

=)
=D
^_^

2006-03-02T22:25:00.000+08:00

wake up this morn feeling damn sian... and things juz not gg smoothly ard in camp... seriouly dun understand why they are doing the things they do ard in camp... dun understand their logic.

but anyway... spent the day walking ard like a zombie.. juz sian...

managed to get over it finally... haha.. hopefully tml will be a better day =)

2006-03-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

I seriously dunnoe how to help...

2006-03-01T22:48:00.000+08:00

Seriously this cannot go on...

2006-02-26T22:08:00.000+08:00

hai~...
slept thru the early aftnn.... in a half-alseep manner while listening to some music... luv this sort of feeling... juz dun feel like getting up after a while... but was intending to meet with the gang for dinner, so dragged myself out of bed...

mood got a bit low after sometime cos of something... but nvm... i chose it tat way...

didn't meet up with the rest in the end cos they went home after their lan-gaming... went lib instead..

got some thoughts in mind... but dunnoe how to put it in words...

2006-02-26T01:39:00.000+08:00

4 things that makes me smile:
- a great bball or badminton game with friends
- hanging out with ppl that i'm comfortable with
- being able to cheer ppl up
- slacking and slping on a stress-free aftnn

4 things to win my heart:
- be there for me
- make me feel that i'm needed too
- have trust in me
- able to understand my thoughts and feelings

4 things I believe in:
- be who u want to be
- if u want something, then work hard to achieve it instead of relying on others
- forgive and forget
- no matter how hardworking u r, playtime is still impt =)

4 things that I'm afraid of:
- hypocrites (as well as backstabbers... more of dislike rather than afraid )
- not being able to play sports, games etc
- seeing ppl in a sad mood but not being able to do anything to cheer them up
- friends quarreling

4 things/ppl that i want to see now:
- things goes the way I prefer them to be
- ppl ard me happy
- less nonsense gg on ard the world
- and someone to be there for me.... and for me to be there for her

4 ppl who shd do this:
- jian hong
- seok fun
- karine
- zhenjie

lol... did it for fun =)

2006-02-26T01:01:00.000+08:00

went to watch FD 3 with wb and serene on sat nite. initially was actually gg to watch the sneak preview of Underworld Evolution at 7pm, but thx to the officer who was still slping at 7pm ''' - - , we didn't get to catch it in the end... so had to watch the 9pm plus FD3 instead. And yes, he dare to show up 20 mins juz b4 the show starts after having overslept ...

haha, anyway, FD3 is a gruesome show, with all the blood, head being crushed bodies being burned etc etc, but the storyline is still the same.... still not so bad lah...but it's a rather short show though, only ard1hr 20 mins or so...

next movie that i wanna watch will be underworld evolution =)

2006-02-21T22:45:00.000+08:00

thx for the concerns u all have shown =) been thinking thru things for the past few days...

i've decided.

i'll wait....

2006-02-19T22:57:00.000+08:00

I can laugh... smile... joke ard... play a fool....

....... ......
so y won't the damn feeling fade away?

2006-02-18T14:02:00.000+08:00

went back camp for some event which took up half a day... my friend said that I seems to be in a cheerful mood today...

Strange... but I dun feel happy at al

2006-02-17T12:09:00.000+08:00

she told me waiting will only be a waste of time.....

... I dunnoe what I shd do........

2006-02-16T20:18:00.000+08:00

Our section 2IC fractured his hand and got MC for a month, and our new section IC, previously in charge of section 2, is gg to take over us soon. The way we see him always make section 2 work OT and rush work, can say that our future is bleak... -_-... hai~

So far our section has been running more or less on its own since our 2IC dun do much work anyway... had to get his backdated paperwork for him too though his the one whose supposed to do all those work... lol might as well give us part of his pay... sometimes really dunnoe he get a few thousand dollars a month for wat when we r doing most of the work for him. Anyway, we r qt happy with a figurehead IC anyway since we have more freedom. Though our section also does not have a section clerk (... seriously dun think this is much of a section, esp when we only have ard 6 ppl working compared to other section with much more ppl ), we are able to split the clerk work among some of us... so it's still not so bad... except that we r not that familiar with paperwork yet.

But if the new section IC is gg to come in and introduce OT straight away, then I only have these words to welcome him : Wake Up ur Idea

looks like have to make him sit down and give him a 1 hr introduction on the work we does in our section on mon...

2006-02-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

initially juz wanted to wait for time to goes by... so that eventually things will fade away...
when there seems to be no hope at all, waiting is juz a mean of occupying the emptiness. So that it won't feel as though part of the heart had been taken away...
Waiting becomes something that provides comfort, provides a purpose...
but when hopes appear, even if it's only a faint one, the feeling that waiting brings changes...

It makes each day lasts longer and each day more torturous.

juz some thoughts.... =)

2006-02-12T11:43:00.000+08:00

went mel's hse on fri nite to play mahjong, and only reach home at ard 2am plus... was supposed to wake up at 10 on the sat morning, but overslept till 12pm when i'm supposed to have tuition at 1pm... no choice so had to postponed the timing... still feeling qt sleepy when I was tutoring the kid... and lol he's even MORE hyperactice than usual... feels so mentally exhausting juz to get him to concentrate on his work =S anyway, after the tuition went to this ulu place call pioneer rd where they had a row of hardware store to get a tool for replacement, but most of the stores were closed because it's a sat afternn, asked ard the few reamining opening ones but still can't find it...

then went for badminton in the evening... now my arm still aching >.<... anyway, had a chat with my sec sch gang after that and we talk abt lots of things.... reached home at 2am plus again.....

hmmmm.... hai~.... still waiting........

gg jp to meet wb and gang later... =)

2006-02-09T22:21:00.000+08:00

waiting....

lingering thoughts.. lingering feelings...

2006-02-05T22:05:00.000+08:00

something about yesterday's gathering was a bit different... usually when we sit down and chat we 'll just be playing some games... but yest's one was really a heart-to-heart chatting session... said things that were left unsaid yrs ago... our opinions of each other, and also things that we didn't know abt each other b4 this...Now that I think of it, was qt suprised at how frank we were yesterday... some feelings from yest's session still lingers....hmmmm.... dunnoe how to describe it... juz feels diff....

had a chat with her on msn this afternn.... can tell she still thinking abt yesterday's gathering too.... but asked something which I wanted to ask qt a long time ago... though didn't get any definite ans, qt glad that i actually did asked... guess it was the lingering feeling at work...
juz want to know how she feels.... and let her know how i feel abt her... guess it's a gd way to end this long CNYholiday....

Work starts tml, so time to work hard =)

2006-02-05T14:25:00.000+08:00

had a sec sch class gathering yesterday... actually not much of a class gathering, juz a bunch of friends in the same sec 1 and sec 2 class. went for k-ge b4 gg for dinner, then had a chat at a playground till ard 2 am.... talk abt a lot of things... how each of us changes etc.. and wonder how we got so close in the first place since the gals and the guys were two separate cliques during sec sch... haha... anyway, really enjoy the chatting session... still thinking abt some of the stuffs that we thought abt though......

anyway, re-learning everything about bball.

2006-02-01T11:52:00.000+08:00

heard that friendship usually last longer than bgr.... so if a person is impt to u both as a friend and as someone whom u like, which shd u choose?
haha.... maybe i dun need to think so much.... since it's not my call anyway...

and yah, i noe my reflexes are slow. I'm working on it.
=)

2006-01-28T20:28:00.000+08:00

hmmm.... tues or sat? steamboat, lao1 yu2 shen1 or k-ge? hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...
>.<....
nvm....
so hu's gg for the class gathering???

2006-01-19T20:51:00.000+08:00

hai~... need to redo some of the paper work cos it's juz too messy liao... spent the whole afternoon trying to sort out the mess... then found out that some things we did was qt redundant... more paperwork to sort out tml morning when i go to camp... >.<... sian..

Anyway, yesterday was my off day. Spent it following her around on her temp job since she didn't had sch on wed too. Meet her at je in the afternoon b4 making our way down to the firm where her sis is working. Qt suprised to find Chinatown so crowded even on a weekday. But it started to rain heavily when we got there, and since it was still early, we had some coffe at this small cafe. The cafe looks nice, but the coffee taste qt bad... esp since they use soya milk instead of condensed milk for the coffee >.<... taste weird... haha, anyway, waited for the rain to stop b4 collecting the material from her sis's firm, and finally the work started.

First stop was at United Sq, then followed by Novena square b4 making our way down to Toa payoh. But had a minor detour back to Novena cos she forgot to do something... Then we went back to toa payoh central and the HDB Hub, and it was already 7 plus =S then continue our journey to Ang mo kio where we hollanded a few times trying to find the shops and so by the time we found the last shop there it was already 9 '''^_^. Make it juz in time b4 the shop closes.
And so she worked from 4 plus all the way to nine plus without taking any break or dinner... hai~... workaholic... But was qt fun tagging along with her since i got to visit so many shopping mall and night market in a single day =) By the time I reached hm after sending her back it was already 11+pm... missed my first ep of samurai 7 on central :( ... haha...
^_^

2006-01-14T21:29:00.000+08:00

Had been reading through the book that wb read not long ago. A lot of things that it mentions, things about approval-seeking behaviours, Guilt, Worry etc etc.... All these sounds quite reasonable... And the book also provide tips on how to change these bad habit so that one can lead a happier life...

As i continue to read the book, can't help but wonder what izzit really like if one can really follow thru wat the book teaches. Approval seeking behaviour... indeed it will be nice if I can juz lead my own life without ever having to worry about wat others might think when i do certain things.... dun have to care about their opinion of myself... juz wo3 xing2 wo3 su4... even better, if I can juz do away with the feeling of Guilt and Worry, wat a carefree life that would be.
As the book said, Guilt and Worry are two useless emotions and they exist because they show that u care about certain things, and they do nothing to help the situation except to immobilise u.

But a human without the feeling of Guilt and Worry? Sounds too cold-blooded to me. Perhaps I have been too intoxicated by the society's values and perception that I can't really think out of the box. Even if u are able to find a way out of a situation that u messed up badly because u had not been immobilise by guilt, wat will be the other's opinion of u? "he's not ashamed of wat he has done....." ... or " he's not even repenting...".... Won't this make a bad impression out of u?

hmm... -_-...

Reading the above paragraph I wrote myself makes me realise that it's a typical example of approval-seeking behaviour. The worry that not feeling guilty will not win the approval of others. The fear of being viewed as cold-hearted or shameless. Guess it's hard to change how one thinks after being "poisoned" with such view for 19 yrs.

As for the part about worrying... seriously, I dunnoe how to show my concern for something or someone other than worrying abt them first. Or rather, there's nthing I can do to help other than showing my concern other than by worrying.... always find myself useless when the time comes when I wants to help. Feels so helpless becos I can't help.

As for approval-seeking behaviour.... tried to do the things that I felt like doing. But guess i didn't handle the situation every well.... cos resulted in having a quarrel with one of my best friends on new yr's eve. It's not his fault, but I dun think I'm in the wrong either. It's a case whereby the view of two person simply dun meet. But it makes me feels bad. And this makes me wonder: Is the Happiness of oneself more important than the happiness of others? If I'm happy with the decision that I made, but it results in the unhappiness of others, most likely I won't feel happy abt it too... But if I forgo my own happiness to please others, I won't like it too...
So shd I build my happiness upon other's? or shd I juz be more self-centered?

Haha. Either way I won't be happy. Cos it seems that one side is bound to get hurt.

I have no conclusion to it... and dunnoe which stand I shd take or who I want to be. Keep fluctuating between the thought of doing things my own way, and seeking the approval of others. Even the principles that I thought I shd adhere to is no longer clear.

hai~

2006-01-10T22:18:00.000+08:00

HAi~...
had to bear with the itch and the pain that the wound on the shin causes every now and then...
juz hope it's not infected >.< anyway, went westmall to meet wb for lunch, then spent the time at the arcade playing this old game while waiting for sk to arrive... got addicted to it liao cos juz can't seem to defeat the robot at stage 3. Keep getting hammered by it. THen after that went queensway shopping center to shop by CNY clothings.. but end up didn't buy anything at all cos didn't really know wat to buy. went back westmall again, and this time saw this two kid playing the same game at the arcade... and they were damn pro... but they didn't get pass satge 3 too.

Muz ask jh how he did it last time after he come back from cresando :)

>.<..

2006-01-08T21:06:00.000+08:00

had a fall and got a patch of scratches on the shin... took qt some time before the bleeding stops, but now that it's starting to heal, it gets even more painful than when i had the fall... >.<.. think running would be a bit impossible for the next few days.... hai~...

2006-01-03T23:11:00.000+08:00

hmmm...

2006-01-03T22:53:00.000+08:00

Getting blur lately...
anyway, 2nd day of OT...
was gg to write something here... but forgot wat i was gg to write.
Then coundn't find my previous entry... and found it on the class blog instead.

-_-....
hmm....
guess some things really bother me....

not a very desirable end to 2005.
Not a very desirbale start to 2006 too.

Juz want to do wat I want, be who I am.

2005-12-31T13:31:00.000+08:00

thx thx~ having a fever on new yr's eve...
-_-...

class gatherings

2005-12-26T12:02:00.000+08:00

Had two class gathering over the weekend. The sec sch class bbq was almost disrupted bcos of the heavy rain.. but luckily the rain stopped juz in time. But though it's a class gathering, the usual bunch of ppl turn up... the gang of 8 gals and the gang of 8 guys minus one whose spending time with his gf -_-... zhong4 se4 qing1 you3 haha.. but can't really blame him, cos he already sid his gg to spend this christmas with his gf during the last christmas gathering. anyway, the bbq was gd, and though at first there wasn't much of any interaction between the guys and the gals, we mangae to break the ice with a few lame games ^_^ chat till like 3+am b4 i make my way home...
Had a great class gathering at zx's hse too. meet up with wb at west mall to get his present, b4 gg to Lot 1 to buy ingredients with jh and sk. decided to do a separate dessert from him... and immeditaely the mood starts to get a bit... competitive?! haha. when we reach zx's hse jh immediately went to work on his dishes, while me, sk and wb play ard a bit with the christmas tree first. and i muz say, spending time in the kitchen alone with jh can be qt scary.... can feel his "sa1 qi4" >.< ... but maybe i'm juz paranoid. haha ^_^

Anyway, qt happy with the turn out of the no. of ppl... though too bad yida the lazy bum didn't turn up cos his too lazy to come -_-. The food wasn't so bad. Jh's fried pineapplr turn out gd, though i still think his dessert a bit too sour. Sk did a great job in decorating the watermelon too. And muz thx bc and her clique for the fingerprint-ed sandwiches hehe =P didn't really like the jap pizzas, but think not so bad to have a change of taste too. Anyway, got a softoy for the christmas exchange.. got one on the orevious day too haha. Think my rm not much space to put such big softtoy, but nvm... will find a place to display it ^_^ by 12mn i already doze off due to the lack of slp the previous day... slp for 1 hr b4 i woke up again... haha. I really can slp anytime anywhere... so that's more or less wat i did during the wkend... really enjoyed it =)

merry christmas~ and happy boxing day

hmm...

2005-12-19T22:37:00.000+08:00

Read abt wat nic wrote abt the relationship stuff....
hmm... guess it's qt true.... esp when two person become gd friends for such a long time, it's just hard to change the way things are...

but it's hard to change the way that a person feels too.

hai~....

2005-12-13T20:14:00.000+08:00

hoho~... thx~ -_-
gg to have to spent like $120 monthly over the next few months juz to get the acne on my face cured.... so much for saving up during NS... >.<

muz hand it to wat my little cousin did. can't really blame him.... he lacks the care of a mother... and my grandmother passed away last yr....
poor kid...

He either gg to be damn street smart when he grows up, or he's gg to be lead astray. Luckily he's still in pri 1... there's still time to keep him on the right path...

2005-12-10T23:16:00.000+08:00

Juz came back from the pri sch gathering... was qt disappointed at first that only ard 6 to 7 ppl turn up... cos a few had last minute changes and wasn't able to make it... felt a bit weird at first... since I haven't seen some of them for like 6 to 7 yrs. Besides asking them abt wat they had been doing, can't really find any other things to talk abt. But suprisingly the gals started chatting straight away as though they had always kept in touch with each other... impressive 0_0...

Anyway, things get funnier once some of them starts to bicker with each other like they used to. Qt fun to see them make fun of each other during the k-ge session. Really had a gd laugh. After that we went to had dinner b4 finally left with reb, serene, sk(together with his 10kg dumbbells 0_o) and me who went to west mall to acc sk to buy his shoe... then plaed photohunt at the arcade for one hr plus trying to break the record.... tiring sia... think i'm gg to need to change a new pair of specs soon =.=....

2005-12-08T21:14:00.000+08:00

few things happened this week... damn pissed off on tuesday, baecause I just can't stand someone there... -_-... we have been doing so much to clear up the mess that him and his ppl created in the past, and yet he give us that sort of attitude like we r not doing our job when he himself hardly help out with his OEN section's work... wat kind of example is he setting for his ppl???
Anyway, another platoon shuffling, and I finally have a section IC over me. Took a burden of my back. Otherwise I always felt reponsible for wat my guys are doing and what they are not doing... so this few days was rather relaxing for me too, dun have to care so much abt things...

and my face continues to rot... -_- thx to the pimple cream that the doc give me, I get to experience the feeling of extreme agony everyday... like pouring salt over open wound twice a day... >.<
2 more days to pri sch gathering. wonder wat's it's gg to be like....

2005-12-03T21:58:00.000+08:00

^_^
Really like the Bball game juz now, cos this time round didn't have that "wat's going on" feeling on the court. The feeling of being in the game was great. Finally able to really enjoy playing bball without feeling lost.

And received a call from one of my pri sch friend regarding the pri sch class gathering coming soon. If i didn't hear wrongly, he said he's out on the sea....
0_o...
haha.. interesting.

2005-12-03T15:43:00.000+08:00

www.haoting.com

It's a gd website, cos it has a very wide collection of English, Chinese, Jap and Korean Albums... even classical and dance mix. Though I think Downloading is not possible, but there's very little interruption if u just click all the songs in the album and put it under "Continuous Play"..

Sad to say, today's class gathering cancelled again cos not many ppl can make...

Spent the whole afternoon listening to the albums of MISIA. She has a very gd vocal...

gg to play bball later with the guys again. Getting lousier at it everytime I'm playing it.

2005-12-01T22:54:00.000+08:00

COC parade came and go.... nth interesting.
But the dinner after that was gd though. ^_^ got thai food, sushi, sashimi, BBQ, desserts, vietnamese springrolls... etc etc.
Then ended up eating too much, and finishing the day with one spoonful of wasabi... haha ^_^ cos somehow I lost at some game last time and suppose to finish ten cans of beer... -_-... but bargained and managed to exchanged 8 cans of beer to one spoonful of wasabi... ^_^ qt fun